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Never took a "before" photo so snapped one this past week. Lots to change...so NOT good at that.

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Another "before" now that I am beginning again...Problem area: stomach.

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April and the start of the 2019 Spring 5% Challenge


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Hello, I'm Hollie. I am a single mother who just left teaching in search of simpler, more productive work that I can leave AT work when I come home for the day. My beautiful daughter just turned four and deserves so much more of me than she has had for the past year while I was teaching in Philadelphia (4th last year, Kindergarten this year).

I recently found a letter I wrote to myself a year before M was born and I am using it as motivation to get back on track. I am guilty of being on a roller coaster. I don't put myself first (I know! I know!) and make excuses. With deeper depression and higher anxiety than I've known in years, massive shifts between inattentive ADD (AKA daydreaming) and ADHD (when I'm manic), and financial stress, 2019 has not been so great but I am bound and determined to make it better.

I recently stopped my meds and am looking forward to warmer weather, particularly since a recent suggestion by my psychologist was to consider photo-therapy. Walking is something that can be used to cope with mental health problems as well as weight loss. As a result, I have decided to set a major goal: in June, I will participate in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention Out of the Darkness Overnight Walk. 16 to 18 miles, sunset to sunrise.

I knew that I needed to come back, to come home, to SparkPeople if I plan on reaching this goal. So here I am. PLEASE don't give up on me...I may need chasing down at times, and to be reminded to do what I need to do, but that is why I'm here. I NEED YOU, SP!

Member Since: 5/3/2010

Fitness Minutes: 10,585

My Goals:
Goal Weight: 140 pounds
Ultimately, my goal is to overcome mental and physical health problems through lifestyle changes.

2019 Spring 5% Challenge Plans of Action:
1) Exercise. My goal is to walk at least 4-5 days per week. Along with that I would like to implement a training plan from "Prevention" (the checkout aisle magazine) up to (at least) the half marathon (this coincides with my goal to walk the Overnight, see below). I will see if I can write this out a little more specifically to post but to sum it up: it alternates days of walking with days of walking and/or cross-training with two rest days per week. I am still looking at my options for cross-training but am strongly considering yoga (for stretching, flexibility, and strengthening...not to mention the meditative benefits for mental health struggles). [I posted calendars and a key on 3/24/2019].
2) Healthy Eating & Nutrition Plan. Step one will be to start tracking. Other things to consider are portion control

My Program:
I quit smoking on June 3, 2014.

I would like to make eating healthier a higher focus (more color, less fat, cut the ****, etc.)
Fitness is a great tool for so many of my goals and can significantly help with my mental health problems.

Personal Information:
It has to work out somehow, there is no other option. Ask me anything. I simply reserve the right to refuse to answer if I feel it is too personal (though, I tend to overshare, if anything).
If you are in crisis, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741.

Other Information:
Each time that I struggled most, I lost my way because I stopped making time for SP. May 2019 be the year that I manage to make it stick.

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