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Before I began my lifestyle change, at my heaviest (301)

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So this page is about me, and the dramatic change my life has taken on the journey from one number to another. I don't state the numbers because they're not important. What's important is what I have learned during these past 4 years.

I was unwilling to say it, even unwilling to think it, but eventually I had to come face to face with the real reason why I had gotten so fat: I was in an abusive marriage. There's every possibility that my ex-husband could read this, and I don't mean to slander him, but I will only state the truth and I will not give any names or any identifying information.

I was in a marriage with a man who did not love me. For him, love was about sex, and sex was about whatever he wanted it to be. Time and again I was subjected to situations that I felt were morally wrong, and went against my very nature and what I believed in. Also, my ex-husband did not allow me to have the relationship with God that I had grown up with.

It wasn't until I had nothing left to lose, when I was willing to throw it all away on February 12th, 2012, that I was sent three beautiful guardian angels to rescue me. I'm tempted to write their names but I will instead hold them in my heart and keep them sacred. They stopped me from giving up and quitting, and they showed me that I do still have so much to live for. And two weeks later, I kicked my ex-husband out of my house.

So now I've lost a total of 301 pounds. 106 from my own body, and 195 from the baggage. Ironically, that means I've completely lost the amount of weight I was when I started (so I am, literally, a WHOLE NEW me). I'm learning what love really means, with a man who is truly worthy of me, and the two of us both have a personal relationship with Jesus.

It wasn't until I'd lost everything that I found myself, it wasn't until I died that I was born again, and it wasn't until I finally found the real problem that my weight issue resolved.

"I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard me cry.

He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord."
~Psalms 40:1-3

Member Since: 9/27/2008

Fitness Minutes: 67,428

My Goals:
Weigh between 150 and 140. Preferably 140!

No more double digit pant sizes. I want to be a size 8 or 6.

Well defined arms and flat stomach. I want to wear spaghetti strap clothes and a bikini for the first time in my life!

I want to be below 200 lbs. This hasn't happened since I was 15.

I want to be able to jog for 10 minutes straight. Distance doesn't matter. (obtained 11/24/08 and it felt great!)

Now that I can jog 10 minutes, I want to be able to run a 10 minute mile! (obtained 1/28/09 at 9 minutes 47 seconds! EAT THAT PE teacher!)

I want to be able to run a 5k.

My Program:
Replacing carbs (bread, pasta, rice) with vegetables and protein.

Whole Foods Multi-Vitamin 1x day

Dancing my life away!

Personal Information:
Happily divorced 02/26/2012

Graduated from the Academy of Art University with a bachelor's in Animation and Visual Effects on December 19th, 2009.

Now working as a Freelance Graphic Artist and Computer Technician in the Central Coast, California.

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