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Me on the happiest day of my life (my wedding) feeling like "Toby with the Ice Blue Eyes"

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top to bottom: Toby, Kalen, Jean, and Sprite = My beautiful family (minus the cats, who don't pose well)

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Graduated MTI Paralegal program with a 4.0 GPA


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There are 2 ways I think of myself physically speaking: as the girl with the beautiful ice blue eyes, or as that obese woman she turned into who's depressed and eating junk food in front of the TV. If I remember that underneath the extra pounds I'm still that beautiful girl, then I believe I deserve to feel like her again.

I just reset my goals, but want to save my old data, so here it is:
Goal Starting Weight: 238
Goal Start Date: April 1, 2010


Weigh ins 2007:
prior to joining SparkPeople I'd bounced from 227 down to 200 and back up to 217 over the first half of 2007
217 - 6/29/2007; 204 - 8/18/2007
215 - 7/4/2007; 202 - 8/28/2007
214 - 7/8/2007; 200 - 9/6/2007
212 - 7/14/2007; 202 - 9/21/2007
211 - 7/22/2007; 198 - 10/7/2007
210 - 7/31/2007; 196 - 10/20/2007
208 - 8/3/2007; 196 - 11/14/2007 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!)
206 - 8/13/2007; 192 - 12/6/2007 (Losing again!)
205 - 8/15/2007;

Weigh ins 2008:
190 - 1/14/2008
188 - 1/18/2008
186 - 1/23/2008
185 - 2/23/2008
185 - 4/9/2008 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!)
184 - 4/11/2008 (Losing again!)
185 - 7/2/2008 (been gone awhile, back on SP)
199 - 11/10/2008 (Day 1, back on SP)

Weigh ins 2009:
210 - 3/8/2009 (Step 1, "admitted powerless over food")
220 - 5/19/2009 (Today Ice cream, Tomorrow Day 1)
222 - 11/16/2009 (Day One, again... don't give up!)

Met these goals, got rewards:
215 lbs = See Harry Potter 5
210 lbs = order Angel Season IV
205 lbs = Get Hot tub Fixed
200 lbs = New Laptop
195 lbs = Buy Harry Potter Book 7
190 lbs = order Angel Season V
185 lbs = Get a Haircut

Rewards planned:
180 lbs = Go Camping/RVing
175 lbs = Buy a Bathing Suit
170 lbs = Take a Day All for Myself
165 lbs = Go Clothes Shopping!!!
160 lbs = Buy a new Book
155 lbs = See a Movie at the Theater
150 lbs = GO TO HAWAII !!!

My favorite SparkPeople quote:
"This IS NOT a diet, this is YOUR LIFE!!!!!"

"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily." - Zig Ziglar, motivational speaker

"I'm still trying to find new homes for the material shards of my past that no longer inform my present." - from TV show "Numbers"

"My fear of financial insecurity has absolutely nothing to do with the state of my bank account, and everything to do with the state of my relationship with my higher power" - Toby, at an AA meeting, 1/15/08

Member Since: 6/29/2007

Fitness Minutes: 27,172

My Goals:
get down to my goal weight and stay there by changing my lifestyle for good. improve my health.
adopt a second child.
DONE: finish law school. overturn federal DOMA and win marriage equality for all.

My Program:
drink water all the time, enjoy walking and getting active daily, cut back on tv, eat and enjoy healthy foods and snacks, enjoy getting enough sleep, enjoy life.

Personal Information:
Age 51, married, mom to 15 year old daughter, solo practice attorney, living in SF Bay Area

Other Information:
quote: "Yes, I have bipolar disorder; but bipolar disorder does not have me."

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    Where does it say I'm student of the week? Is that why my picture is up on the NonTraditional Students forum? Cool! All I did was track my homework ;-)
    3980 days ago
    congrats on being the student of the week!!!
    3981 days ago
  • v LMB-ESQ
    LOL.... I see the weight loss as putting down a big bag of dog food!

    Thanks for the goodie... hey, as long as I don't have to drop a couple hundred bucks on it, I'll take it! "Virtual law school study-buddy" I like that!

    I'm finding much the same thing with the reading. The issues and the rules seem to jump out now and I don't have to spend as much time briefing. And the dicta, I can skim through and not worry about if I'm missing something. So far, they haven't gotten more interesting, but they are definitely going faster. I hated contracts, but ironically, it's the class I got my best grades in. Go figure.

    I spoke to the Academic Success director this morning (kind of the law school equivalent of a HS guidance counselor) and she helped me put together a very rough schedule of what to take the rest of my law school career. She also pointed out the "don't miss" classes that are always tested on the bar exam here (I'm in Ohio) She also advised me on what classes are okay to take at the same time and which ones will be harder. We have to have our bar admission application in by November 15 and she advised me to get moving on it by mid September because of the sheer volume of info required for it. So I'm feeling okay about it, at least like I've got a plan.

    Now the problem is, my tendency when I have more time on my hands is I tend to fool around more and actually get less done! So I must force myself back to studying, and lay off some of the administrative crap. It isn't going anywhere, and I need to prep for classes!
    3987 days ago
    38 lbs is like putting down a toddler (a BIG one) that I'd been carrying around day and night!
    3987 days ago
  • v GRACEC29
    Woo Hoo on that weight loss. I like to visualize each pound that I've lost as a pound of hamburger lined up on the counter. 38 lbs is a lot of hamburger!
    3990 days ago
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