Responsibility and "getting old"
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
I seem to have this knack for getting myself in over my head. People around me have a way of making me feel that if I don't do what they need me to do, they will "just die". This leads to periodic moments of panic when I realize I have taken on more than I can do.
This week has already been one of those. I have 4 EBay clients all wanting to get stuff up since they have caught the bug, a part time job that I'm not terribly fond of, but I like the people and I'm needed, a horse that needs my attention, and quilts to get finished. Somewhere in there I have to find time to spend time with family and clean my house.
My reaction when I get to this state is to withdraw. I know, not the best reaction to take as it doesn't reduce any loads. So I have discontinued taking quilting commissions for now, which when I finish the ones I am working on now will allow me to take time to do some of my own designs and refresh my mind.
I have also come to the decision that once I get the new software up and running the first of April, I will give them my notice. I have a job offer for a position that I will enjoy more and is more in line with my talents. I know this will cause a stir around me and I've been told that this is not an option, but I must do it for me.
As to the "getting old" part, I guess I have come to realize that if I do what I need to do, the rest of the world WILL survive, and find a way to cope. I am actually quite happy to realize this as it frees me to get some "me" time and still deal with the people around me.
Well, I have a meeting to go to. Keep going and Take some time for your favorite person..... YOU!