Sunday, April 27, 2008
Patience works, so does a teacher that can explain things that are hard to explain.
I had a lesson this week with my coach, and learned 2 small positions in my riding that "suddenly" had my horse floating and happy. Everything became easy. Now all I have to do is memorize the feelings and store them in my brain.
I have learned to be patient, finally. I am now listening to my body, and pushing it as far as I can comfortably go. I start doing aerobics again this week. I can't wait.
I feel ready to take the next step. I am ready to start re-joining the fight to get to a more healthy weight. I am ready to take charge of my life. I am ready to take responsibility for my actions.
No more excuses and frustration with waiting for others. I am about as healed as I am going to be, and it is now time to learn to live with what I have.
Am I 100%? No. But I am close. I can live with this head that I now have.
I can be an athlete and friend and lover. It just takes being responsible for who and what I am.
I'm ready to start acting like a healed person.