Day 80 - Still struggling
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
First, thanks to everyone for your comments. I appreciate it.
I'm still struggling right now. Falling off the wagon and saying "screw it" (as I did with the Enchiladas on Sunday night) is often the beginning of the end for me historically. I've mentioned before that cheating is the biggest problem I have with weight loss... once I do it, it's easy to let that become the new pattern. And that's the struggle I'm going through right now.
Yesterday all I had to do was stick to what I'd already logged for dinner and no more. But in addition to the salad and the fish, I also had a serving of dried cherries and (sigh) another slice of cake after dinner. There were more slices of cake left over than I had realized.
My final calorie count for the day was 1811. Considering I was supposed to stop at 1550, that's not good. But I suppose it could have been worse.
Part of my problem is that the overeating from this weekend got me used to eating more. So now I want to eat more out of habit. It's a struggle to keep my calories down without feeling like I'm depriving myself. But 5 days ago, I didn't feel that way. It's amazing how quickly that can come back.
So here I am on day 80, 10 days away from my highly anticipated day 90, going through some of the same processes I did on day 1. But this time I don't have the super-fueled frustration I had in the beginning. But hopefully what I do have is 75 days of good new habits, positive results to lean on, a stronger sense of faith in myself, and the basic belief I can get there - that I can get this thing done!
Last night I did my 60 mins on the treadmill followed by my ab workout. My abs were burning last night. I haven't been doing them often enough.
I also still need to print out the arm workouts on a chart and start doing them. I watched the DVD the other night and wrote down everything along with the # of reps. I think for the arm workout I'm going to use level 2 instead of level 1. I'm already doing a bunch of the stuff on workout 2, so I might as well just pick up with that one. That surprised me. So at least that's good news!