Saturday, September 27, 2008
I've been really depressed today. Keith was real pissed at me as well. I think I know what is making me sad. All he wants to do is play wow, he has no interest in the things I want to do. Absolute zero interest in exercise or fixing up the house. It hurts when he chooses to spend all night with his wow buddies instead of me, or when he defends them and acts like I'm stupid any time I have something to say that is not just absolutely positive about his buds. I feel so lonely. I am worried that I am not going to have the strength or the ability to do the things that need to be done around here. Sometimes I feel that my only value to him is a meal ticket.
I almost did not do my work out, almost... but I did.
I almost felt like eating bad things... almost... but I didn't
Things will be better. I just have to do what I can and what I want and accept the fact that I might just have to do them alone.
I am not giving up on this diet! I am going to be successful.