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Saturday, September 27, 2008

I've been really depressed today. Keith was real pissed at me as well. I think I know what is making me sad. All he wants to do is play wow, he has no interest in the things I want to do. Absolute zero interest in exercise or fixing up the house. It hurts when he chooses to spend all night with his wow buddies instead of me, or when he defends them and acts like I'm stupid any time I have something to say that is not just absolutely positive about his buds. I feel so lonely. I am worried that I am not going to have the strength or the ability to do the things that need to be done around here. Sometimes I feel that my only value to him is a meal ticket.
Depressing huh.
I almost did not do my work out, almost... but I did.
I almost felt like eating bad things... almost... but I didn't
Things will be better. I just have to do what I can and what I want and accept the fact that I might just have to do them alone.

I am not giving up on this diet! I am going to be successful.
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    Great job on working out...and not giving into food. A weaker person would have. You are strong and you have all of the support of your online friends! Good luck!
    4644 days ago
    All these girls are right on. We are ALL here for you. When you were depressed--we were there with you. And are here with you now. Stay strong and focus on the NOW. You have the strength and you know it. Just look a little harder and you'll see it was there all along!
    4644 days ago
    That's one of the benefits of joining sparkpeople; you are not alone. Some things our significant others won't or can't join in on. Sometimes they eventually come to join because our good example. Good job on sticking to your plan. Can't say I've always done the same. emoticon JJ
    4645 days ago
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    One very good thing about your blog is the word, "Almost".
    B/c "almost" shows you're still dedicated to you and your healthy lifestyle.
    Chin up, girl. I've read your other blogs, you were ready for something to happen & you're overcoming it!
    You inspired me today!


    4646 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/27/2008 7:28:50 PM
    You can do this. You are not alone, we are with you! Hugs, Jetta
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