If I'm not eating, I'm SHOPPING.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I have convinced myself to return to logging. I haven't been perfect, but at least I am again somewhat motivated to actually LOOK at what all I'm doing.
In that spirit, I thought I might share my latest obsessive behavior: buying "quick-drying clothing."
You may know that my boyfriend and I are going to Vietnam--for kicks--in about three weeks. We have been saving for over a year, and all of the sudden I feel very under-prepared.
I have ordered a mosquito net. I have special cool-max travel sheets (in case the hotels are unsavory). I have a new bathing suit, a new rain jacket, a new purse, new "travel" pants, new skirt, NEW MESH UNDERSHORTS so that my thighs couldn't possibly rub together and allow chafing to ruin my time.
Today, as I was aimlessly shopping for potentially "quick-drying" tank tops, I started to feel guilty about my credit card spending. And the economy, for God's sake.
Several thoughts came to mind:
What if I can't find a job when I get back?
How many more "quick-drying" articles of clothing will it take before I feel prepared? How much money do I have to spend in order to feel better?
What if I won't be able to pay for all this stuff? Especially--the stuff that I actually NEEDED, like insulin pump supplies, and shots of Japanese Encephalitis vaccine.
These last few weeks are passing so slowly. All I ask is that they go as smoothly as possible. No sudden inexplicable blow-outs with my boyfriend, no getting fired from work, no maxing out the credit cards (I worked so HARD to pay them down!) No eating until my new "quick-drying" clothes no longer fit.
Oh, big sigh. It's a lot of pressure not to FREAK OUT.