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Monday, December 22, 2008

I have gained a lot of weight since I stopped sparking. I felt my best around 122 pounds and now I'm about 10 pounds higher than that. I've been waking up feeling fat and ugly and it feels like the old days - it feels awful. I've yo-yo'ed here and there - given up drinking for a month and lost 4 pounds, but then gained it back. I stick to my basic plan but then I also eat a lot of junk. I've been really hesitant about coming back to spark because I was embarrassed, etc. But wait - isn't that what spark is for?

Although it is before the holidays I'm back and my goal now is to get back to 125 pounds, after that we'll see. I lost 50 pounts before so it seems like I should be about to lose 7 pretty easily- right? I don't want to give up my size 2 and extra smalls and I want to nip it in the bud this time.

Lots of things have contributed to this, a happy relationship, people still tell me how good i look so it has been easy to ignore that I am gaining, and then some slipping into my old thought process of "what can i eat next"?

I am happy to be back and feel like I'm in control again. I really hope I can stick with this program!
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    Hey, Mandy! I also stopped sparking for a while this summer, and the same exact thing happened to me- gained weight, started feeling gross again, etc. Anyway, I've been back now for a few months, and it's going well. Here's to Maintenance!
    4540 days ago
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    Hi Mandy. Thank you for your great, honest blogging! The fact that you're back here and you're only a few pounds up from your goal is wonderful, inspiring, and encouraging. If we all did that - refocused - when we went up only a few pounds, we'd all be in a much better place! Unfortunately, I usually wait till i'm up 20 or 30 plus pounds before i really get serious again. So here i am, starting over again. Anyway, just wanted you to know that you are inspiring, motivating, and you are beautiful! Just the way you are! all the best ~ lirpa (o:
    4545 days ago
    Your weight loss is really inspiring! Don't be ashamed of coming back. I lost some weight when I left, and then gained it all back and have decided to really take myself seriously. If I want something bad enough, I can achieve anything! And I want this! I have faith in you! It'll be a breeze ;)
    4557 days ago
    Great blog! I hope to get to goal and stay there, or at least gain no more than five back before I stop myself. I always say losing the weight is the easy part, keeping it off is the hard part. You're doing great and welcome back. Keep on Sparking!
    4560 days ago
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