Monday, December 22, 2008
I have gained a lot of weight since I stopped sparking. I felt my best around 122 pounds and now I'm about 10 pounds higher than that. I've been waking up feeling fat and ugly and it feels like the old days - it feels awful. I've yo-yo'ed here and there - given up drinking for a month and lost 4 pounds, but then gained it back. I stick to my basic plan but then I also eat a lot of junk. I've been really hesitant about coming back to spark because I was embarrassed, etc. But wait - isn't that what spark is for?
Although it is before the holidays I'm back and my goal now is to get back to 125 pounds, after that we'll see. I lost 50 pounts before so it seems like I should be about to lose 7 pretty easily- right? I don't want to give up my size 2 and extra smalls and I want to nip it in the bud this time.
Lots of things have contributed to this, a happy relationship, people still tell me how good i look so it has been easy to ignore that I am gaining, and then some slipping into my old thought process of "what can i eat next"?
I am happy to be back and feel like I'm in control again. I really hope I can stick with this program!