Eight Days a Week
Saturday, April 18, 2009
It's only Saturday -- the third day of my new lifestyle. Although I haven't been perfect, I've been 100 times better than I was! I didn't pressure myself to police every little thing....that would've sent me back to compulsive eating and back to that vulnerability to kills my efforts every time.
Instead, I made healthy choices. I ate lunch at McDonald's, but made healthy choices. I ate a cookie my mother offered, but didn't eat a dozen like I normally would. I still have not had one soda in three days. I was up to half a dozen a day previously. Not only was that a killer calorie count, but a literal killer on the sodium level in regards to my blood pressure.
I sat through a movie with my mother with only that cookie as a snack. Normally I would have ate a buffet of snacks "because I deserve that indulgence". I felt great. It was such an enjoyable time.
I'm still waiting for the old "vulnerability", that point where I freak out and crawl back into the safety of my compulsive eating. But I'm taking this one moment at a time. Moment to Moment. Choice by Choice.
I think it has helped tremendously to have new friends on here who reached out to me and are continuing to offer support. I was so shocked at how many people reached out within minutes after my first blog. I am so grateful.
Thanks everyone. Three days down; a lifetime to go.