In Limbo :(
Friday, July 17, 2009
In every aspect of my life right now I feel like I am stuck in limbo and just can not get out of this rut.
Up until the last 2 weeks I have been working out almost daily (for over a year!) Strength training 2-3 times a week, running 12-15 miles a week and TKD 3-4 hours a week, I mix things up and add in Jillian Michael DVD's and other workouts. I have been watching what I eat, trying to keep my calories under 1800 a day. With all this I have NOT lost 1 pound!!!!!!!
I'm starting to totally lose my motivation :(
It is taking everything in me just to force myself to go to a TKD class. When I do go to a class I am finding myself feeling bored, unmotivated and feeling totally unchallenged. This may sound weird but I feel like I am just taking up valuable space :( I end up leaving the class feeling really depressed.....this is something I always looked forward to and loved doing. I HATE feeling this way.
My running.... I have not run 1 time this week. My goal was to run a half marathon this year. I am starting to find that it is very hard to keep myself motivated for this when I have someone fighting me every step of the way . No support. I started running early in the morning so it did not interfere with anything. Not good enough.
Oh, and that someone I just referred to above.....that is a another whole state of limbo.
To top everything else off my fibromyalgia seems to be flaring up again....probably because I am not being as active. I have not had a problem with it for over 5 years now except for occasiona" fibro-fog" Sigh....
I really need to stop whining here and find a way to get out of this rut.