It's been a blue week
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I have been "blue" this week. I am afraid my depression is coming back and I am trying really hard to work through it. I have gained back everything that lost when I first started with Spark People. I went to the doctor this week, my weight was up, my cholesterol was up, my triglycerides were up..... She asked what happened. I told her I got tired of worrying about what I eat every second of the day so I decided that I love summer and I was going to have fun. So I had a fantastic summer! Now its gone and I am paying the price. The older I get the harder it is to lose weight. I am still obsessed with it. My DH is not supportive at all. He makes comments thinking he is being motivating but NOT. What he says is hurtful and I get dirty looks whenever I eat anything. Add to that I hate my job right now.... Stress and belly fat..... I can't win... But I keep plugging away at it, Trying to eat right and exercise and work through the depression feelings. Hopefully the sunny weekend will help my mood. Just needed to vent this morning.