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It's been a blue week

Saturday, September 12, 2009

I have been "blue" this week. I am afraid my depression is coming back and I am trying really hard to work through it. I have gained back everything that lost when I first started with Spark People. I went to the doctor this week, my weight was up, my cholesterol was up, my triglycerides were up..... She asked what happened. I told her I got tired of worrying about what I eat every second of the day so I decided that I love summer and I was going to have fun. So I had a fantastic summer! Now its gone and I am paying the price. The older I get the harder it is to lose weight. I am still obsessed with it. My DH is not supportive at all. He makes comments thinking he is being motivating but NOT. What he says is hurtful and I get dirty looks whenever I eat anything. Add to that I hate my job right now.... Stress and belly fat..... I can't win... But I keep plugging away at it, Trying to eat right and exercise and work through the depression feelings. Hopefully the sunny weekend will help my mood. Just needed to vent this morning.
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  • SPARTANJAI
    Hi, sorry you are having struggles. It's a bad cycle with gaining weight and then struggling with how it makes you feel and then gaining more weight. Take a deep breath, relax and let the support you are getting here on Spark help you get back into the swing of things...and I hope that will make you feel less depressed. Good luck and if there's anything that I can do to give you extra support, just let me know!
    You can do it!
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    4333 days ago
  • T42AND24T
    Everyone else has said the important stuff, but I just wanted to add another note of support!

    Shelley
    4334 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Laura,
    Okay, you had all the fun this summer,(glad somebody did!) now just picture NEXT summer and where you want to be then!! Work your way backwards towards that goal!! Nasty looks are a control tactic, so just smile when they are given,, Remember that tennis ball across the net??
    Release the button, with that one you have in your pocket, too!!
    Unconditional love is just that: Under no condition do we stop loving or caring for the other person, which includes manipulation.
    Think water, salad, smiling and walking,, I love my job, it is the people that I work with, that are the bane of my existance!! Smile at them, it will kill them!!!!LOL!
    4334 days ago
  • DEBANNE1124
    Wonderful Heavenly Father,
    Please help Joy snap out of this blue fog depression she is in momentarily. You are so good to all of us . She has helped so many of us see your glory and righteousness. Heal her with your miraculous joy that you ahve spread over us.
    In Jesus name, Amen
    4335 days ago
  • TLSPEARS1
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    It is good to vent but now please take some time to get back on track. Don't let this setback keep you from obtaining your goals.

    Take it one day at a time. Get back into a healthy routine and you will be happier that you did. I know you can do it.


    4335 days ago
  • SRAMB23
    It sounds to me that you need to speak with your doctor about the possibility of antidepressants and or counseling. Please get the help you need so you dont suffer the effects of the depression. emoticon
    4335 days ago
  • KMPS24
    i have depression too. i have been dealing with it since i was a young boy. it's not easy to deal with it sometimes, but please know you have support here. if you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate. god bless, we will get through this. emoticon
    4335 days ago
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