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Battling Anxiety

Friday, October 16, 2009

Taking a mental detour from the focus on health and fitness, but we had a Reduction in Force at work yesterday, and even though I was spared, it's been weighing heavily on my mind. I don't feel relieved for some reason. A good friend is gone, and it's taken "layoff" from the conceptual realm of news stories to something personal and all too close to home.

I really thought we (the company) were doing a good job of restructuring and keeping contracts flowing so as to avoid this kind of draconian measure, so for me the news came as a jolt. I didn't see it coming at all.

I've felt pretty secure in my employment situation through these touch economic times, but not anymore. I'm hoping the 6% drawdown we've had will be enough and there won't be anymore. It weighs on me mentally even though I got to keep my job. I can't imagine what it must be like to find your world turned upside down in the blink of an eye. I don't want to know.

I'll get over this, I'm sure, and move forward, working harder to make myself more indispensable that perhaps I have. I've put 4 good days of exercise together in a row, which is the first time I've done that since mid-September. That always makes me feel better. I should make myself a plan again with some concrete goal. I like it better when I've got a regimen to follow.

Two more weeks of swim training. I've gotten 5 sessions in so far. I'll shoot for at least four more: 2 next week and 2 the last week in October.

Susan B. Komen "Race for the Cure" in San Diego is on 1 November. I'd sure like to be healed enough to be able to run in that.
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    That sounds really crap, I would be packing it as well. In fact it makes me anxious just reading about it! Good plan to tackle it. Exercise is awesome on mood, hey? Hope you can get to the Nov 1st race.
    4227 days ago
  • GEMINI062069
    I can understand your anxiety - I have anxiety as well and this week has been insanely tough and I have had 3 panic attacks... when we are stressed - like your job situation - it really doesn't help much! I hope things get better for you, sounds like you are looking at things positively and all will be good. Take care! Have a great weekend.
    4227 days ago

    I also have anxiety. But it sounds like you have a real reason to be anxious. It is very stressful to have people around you RIFed. Hugs. emoticon
    4227 days ago
    Hang in there, I suffer from Anxiety and I have to take meds when I just cant get a grip as I dont want the kids to see me like that. Working out helps me alot and takes my edge off some days. Having a goal to focus on helps, just dont make it some huge goal that will add to your worry!
    4227 days ago
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