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Frustrations

Friday, January 15, 2010

It's been a very frustrating week and I think I just need to get it all out of my system. The newest frustration is that I gained weight this week and I have no idea why. I thought I was eating healthy and I was definitely exercising so I don't know what happened. I was more than a little upset when I got on the scale last night.

A bigger frustration is my job. Well, one of them. My office job has been absolutely miserable this week. I've been putting in extra hours to help my boss out but it has not been fun. We've had just about everything go wrong that could. Professors spent 3 times the amount of money they were allowed to, professors yelling at me for not using an updated form I don't have access to, a student worker bringing paperwork to the wrong place which means that my boss and I have been scrambling to fix the problem. Accounts Payable isn't having checks ready for performers when they are supposed to. The guy who was supposed to get our international performers paid was out of town so I had to try to do it but have never done this before, neither had my boss so we didn't have a clue what we were doing. The paperwork was not intuitive, it isn't at all in this particular state-run institution. As a matter of fact its pure beauracracy. Anyway, my boss has been stressed out ridiculously and she has been taking it out on me as has everyone else and I'm not sure how much more of it I can handle.

Aikido is normally my stress reliever but this week has been difficult, especially Tuesday. I am a brownbelt and was forced to put my brownbelt back on which didn't make me happy, I wanted to wear my whitebelt. I don't particularly enjoy being a brownbelt. Mostly because I'm a girl. The brownbelts are the servants of the dojo, which I actually enjoy. It's my job to make sure everything gets taken out and put back and I'm responsible for helping all Yukyusha etc. I'm also supposed to know all the techniques now and I don't. At all, because there's never time to work on the stuff I am supposed to know. However brownbelts are supposed to be pushed and tested on all levels but they won't do that to me because I am a girl and they are wary of me being a girl.. It all is not fair.
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  • MOMOSEVEN
    I'm sympathize with you that you had a frustrating week all around. When we face weeks like this we have to stop concentrating on the bad things and think about the good. The trouble is that it only takes one negative thing to discharge the 20+ positive things. That is why my faith is so important to me. Chin up; things will get better.
    4188 days ago
  • MOMOSEVEN
    I'm sympathize with you that you had a frustrating week all around. When we face weeks like this we have to stop concentrating on the bad things and think about the good. The trouble is that it only takes one negative thing to discharge the 20+ positive things. That is why my faith is so important to me. Chin up; things will get better.
    4188 days ago
  • MOMOSEVEN
    I'm sympathize with you that you had a frustrating week all around. When we face weeks like this we have to stop concentrating on the bad things and think about the good. The trouble is that it only takes one negative thing to discharge the 20+ positive things. That is why my faith is so important to me. Chin up; things will get better.
    4188 days ago
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  • WANDERERR
    Hi alicia,
    I can relate to not wanting to put your senior belt back on. In karate I was a middle-senior belt and I'm afraid that if I go back I will have to put it on and my knowledge of technique is wayyy behind where it should be. It's strange that they are nervous of you because you are a girl, surely the responsibilities of a brown-belt girl are no less and no more? big hugs and best,

    drin
    4217 days ago
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    {{{{{{HUGS!}}}}}}}
    4218 days ago
  • no profile photo DONEWSP
    Just try to relax and soothe your nerves. Maybe go for a walk as well. I hope your following week is better.
    4218 days ago
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    Alicia -Cotisol can cause you to gain weight. If you're under this kind of stress, your body may be over-producing it.

    Take a hot bath tonight with relaxing music and read something fun or listen to music. You need to give your body a chance to calm down and get centered again.
    4219 days ago
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