Day Twenty One - Others First
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Today, I was thinking about my personality and how it affects my actions. I tend to be a giving, sensitive and nurturing person. In the personality tests, I always come out as a person who likes to counsel people and tests indicate that I should be a teacher, a minister, a mediator, etc. All giving professions.
Now, I wonder about this tendency of mine. In my life has that tendency caused me to put other people first and me second? I get so drained sometimes by others "perceived" demands and needs that I have nothing left for me. Then I burn out or remove myself from people until I recharge my batteries. During that down time, I get physically and emotionally drained so I eat to soothe me and fill the hole. I have no goals for me. The idea of having to "work" at figuring out what to eat or God forbid sweat just seems like such a punishment.
Part of my journey is going to be to assess this tendency of mine and make sure that I take care of myself first so I can take care of others in a healthy way. I am going to journal and reflect each day to see how I do and how I can improve.