Wednesday, April 14, 2010
What a really rough day. I really should be in bed but I really need to get this all out of my system first. My day didn’t start out too bad, normal crazy morning. I went to Dunkin Donuts for breakfast (I know I know, it was that or eat nothing). Got to work only to have my boss be in a horrible mood and she sent me across campus despite the fact that I can’t breathe outside. It was not super fun, but I survived. Work was a bit crazy. But hey, whatever, its work. It was the poster that started it. I HATE POSTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ABSOLUTELY LOATHE POSTERS! It’s a long story, but ever since elementary school I have hated posters. I am in GRADUATE SCHOOL…why am I making a poster, why can’t I do a powerpoint or something…why a poster?????? I spent a good portion of the day working in my scrapbooking software to create all the things to go one my poster because my handwriting is MISERABLE. I got it all done, printed it all out. And then the HORROR began. I had to CUT and PASTE all the stuff. I’m a LEFTY!! I can’t use scissors, I can’t cut a straight line…and have you ever ever ever tried to glue things that are crooked? It’s practically impossible. And so I was frustrated on my way to my second job. And then Aleks was having a rough time and was unhappy and he sort of yelled at me via texting which I don’t think he meant to but it put me more on edge. Then the girls started bickering and I almost lost it. Then the exhaustion set in. And then I had to finish the poster. I had a breakdown over a poster. And as I said to my friend on the phone all I want is to have enough time in the day to actually go to the gym or take a bubble bath. I want to blow dry my hair soooooo badly. I want to feel feminine again. I want to have the time to do my hair and make up. I want to feel pretty. I want to feel appreciated. I am tired of falling into bed exhausted and dragging myself up and out the door in the morning. I want energy, enthusiasm. I just want to feel like a lady again. I want Mika to be excited to see me etc. (long story). Sigh….