Monday, July 12, 2010
I just read a blog that made me stop and think. Rather than reply with something that may sound negative, without meaning to, I have decided to put it in a blog of my own. This is not to be another "pity party", but to remind myself what is motivating me to do things right this time.
I'm not doing this to be model thin. That won't make me a better person. I will be healthier and that will make me a better person because I will be able to enjoy the life that I am fortunate to have.
I'm torn with this idea of loving my body "as-is". If that were true would I be here trying to improve it? No. I love the person that I am inside, but my body is another story. I don't like that my knees hurt, that I get out of breath doing simple things, that it keeps me from loving the "whole" me. Yes, my body is a gift that I have abused and it is rebelling and making me angry so that I can fix it. If I were to say to myself "take it or leave it", I might take it and stay on the couch. I want to love the whole package for a long time.
This body is hurting me. Not just physically, but mentally as well. I do NOT like it! Let alone love it. Other people are welcome to take me as I am, or not. That is not who is important in this equation. This is about ME and being the best me that I am capable of being.