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God answers prayer

Monday, September 27, 2010

I've have tried to lose weight for years (decades), without success, because, I kept going back to old patterns.. But that whole time, through all the pain, I have been praying. I have seen that my willpower is just not enough; I need help to unravel the problem.

Over a long period of time, I began to change. For example, I gave up sugar a year ago, realizing that it was unhealthy for me. I still didn't lose weight.

My breakthrough came in August... for the first time in my life, I realized that I could still love myself (just as I would another person) even though I was overweight. Until that time, I had not accepted/loved myself because I wasn't perfect. How this made a difference, is huge! In my case, not accepting or loving myself, meant I always felt unworthy of success. I lost weight over and over, only to regain it all.. Once I lost 25 lbs, another time, 20 lbs.. only to then eat and eat pretty well nonstop until every last pound was back on. why?!! I tormented myself with this question through my tears.. the truth is, the new me just didn't feel right somehow, and with every pound I gained back, I felt more comfortable, more myself..

I knew then, that for me, this was all a mental block of some kind. I kept praying and I truly do believe that there are some problems so deep in our minds, that we can't solve them ourselves.

Then, as I say, in August, I was sitting outside on the porch, and it occurred to me that I could accept myself as a person, even though I didn't have the body,willpower etc.. that I wanted. I felt 'whole' for the first time and I do believe that all this time, God was working out all the changes in my mind that led to that day.

In September, I stumbled on Sparkpeople (I don't believe in coincedences!) and immediately started. Having given up the sugar last year, I find that this program is easy to stay on.. having said to myself 'I love me anyway' has given me success.. you see, I am not on this diet because I am unacceptable this way, I am on it only to improve myself. :-) It might sound like a small difference, but in my mind the difference is huge. I am having success and find I have unbelievable willpower now, because finally, I am 'worthy' of success..
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  • MUVFASTA
    We're so happy you found Spark. We can and will do this friend!!!
    3920 days ago
  • CLAIRESML
    Good for you! I know you are worthy and so do you.
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    3920 days ago
  • JHOPPER
    What a wonderful outlook!! A good lesson for all of us there, and SO happy you found Spark and are continuing your journey here. Nothing but great things are in store for you!! Bless you!
    3920 days ago
  • PALEAN
    I love your approach. "I am acceptable as I am, just can be improved." God bless you...and never forget your own words!! They are inspiring!
    3920 days ago
  • ABRANDNEWME15
    He certainly does! emoticon

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    3920 days ago
  • DEVRIES51
    We are all worthy of being happy, healthy people. Investing time and love in yourself makes it happen. Thanks for the reminder. Have a wonderful blessed day. emoticon
    3920 days ago
  • no profile photo TBONE13
    YES HE DOES ANSWER !!!!!!!!!!!!
    3920 days ago
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