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Dieting burnout

Thursday, December 09, 2010

In the beginning, it is so easy to diet, at least for me. I can eat 900 calories a day and feel just fine and dandy and think it is so hard to even get to the required 1200 calories. I think, why did I ever need chocolate chips on my frozen yogurt and I can't believe I once thought I needed to eat a whole apple, not half an apple. That lasts for about a month - I lose weight, I feel good.

Then month two rolls around when I realize that I actually lose more weight by eating 1200 calories a day than I did at 900 calories a day. I drink a glass of wine once in a while, I eat half a tablespoon of chocolate chips on my frozen yogurt and think "oh why did I ever need more". I lose more weight, people start to notice.

Month three rolls around and I still maintain around 1200 calories a day, I lose a little more slowly, but i lose. I fit into all my small clothes, my weight gets respectably low. I want to eat more but i'm desperately afraid of gaining it back. I keep going.

Month four and I want yellows in my eggs, I want peanut butter, I want cookies. I'm hungry and I want to eat. I tell myself, two more pounds, lose two more pounds and you can start eating 1500 calories a day and that will mean a cookie now and then, maybe even two glasses of wine some days, peanut butter!

Oh our troubled food relationships, and how they manifest as we try to take control. Crazy how I pride myself on being a great, truly effective dieter. Crazy how I weigh 122 pounds right now, and am wearing size 26 jeans and an extra small shirt and how badly I want to be under 120, even though I know I don't need to be and it won't last.

One more week until vacation, and then I'll take a break.
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  • ZUMBAWITHTASHA
    Try changing your eating plan and then come back to this one. emoticon
    3838 days ago
  • SEPPIESUSAN
    I can relate with all of this... this is the reason why my diets always seem to last a few months before I fall off. You get so hungry after a while! It's so hard, but you're doing great and you're going to look awesome on that vacation!!
    3838 days ago
  • TOTHEFUTURE1
    Interesting blog. Our relationship with food is so complex. Question do I want to be thinner or do I want to eat chocolate? Answer varies. Hugs
    3838 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2514968
    I am on Atkins and stay at Induction levels to control my type 2 diabetes, the weight loss was a nice side effect. For me this isn't a diet (short term thing to lose weight) but a life style shange & is how I will eat forever.I am not hungry, nor do I feel deprived, and love the way I eat.
    If you are missing some things you like to eat, maybe you need to rethink your eating plan.
    Hugs,
    WW
    3839 days ago
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