There are 22 more days in my countdown. I am beyond excited about my plans to spend time with family and friends in March! My niece is turning 7 and she is an amazing little lady that I could just yum up!!! She and I are like soul twins! LOL! She gets me and I totally get where she is coming from. She has a sparkle and presence that just makes being with her a fun thing to look forward to. We have dance competitions when I am home. We sing, we color, we do everything girly you can think of. Pink, pink, pink! Glitter, Glitter, Glitter!
One day I'm going to write a book about how loving her has helped me learn to love me. I want nothing but the very best for her. I want her to be happy, healthy, loved, protected, adventurous . . . you know Brave, Bold, Fierce and Fabulous. I have made it a rule to not allow myself to say anything to or about myself that I would not say aloud to her or to anyone else that I love. If I would not say "you are a fat cow" to anyone else . . . why would I say that to myself. I refuse to be part of the abuse that happens to my soul ever again.
In the past 46 days or so (lost count), I have endeavored to change my 'rear view' in project "She's Got Legs". I can truly say that no one could work any harder than I have. No one could be more diligent in their diet than I have. I did not go on a stricter diet, just adhered to the tenants of my eating plan as close as I possible could.
I upped the frequency and intensity of my lower body workouts. I sought out and used the most effective exercise I know of to hit the targeted areas. I am seeing some progress and I will share those pictures with you. However, when I looked at my bikini progress pictures this time I noticed that over the past three months my body has not changed much. Yes, I got into a pair of pants that I couldn't wear and my clothes fit differently. But when stripped down to my bikini, my body is very much the same.
And I ask myself, Is It Enough. Can I be satisfied with what I have accomplished, knowing that this is as good as it gets. Don't get me wrong, what I got is much better than I could have ever dreamed. This has been an amazing journey to this point. Will it be enough for me to continue working on my health, strength and fitness? I know that the muscles are there and that they getting stronger. Due to excess skin, I don't know that I will ever see them as much as I can feel them. I'm not discouraged. I hope that comes across. I am just questioning myself aloud. If this is as good as it gets, it is enough.
Is it enough to wake up every day feeling healthy and strong.?
Is it enough to be able to run a marathon?
Is it enough to now focus on helping others set goals and educate them on how to be healthy and strong?
Is it enough to have the healthiest relationship I have ever had with myself, food and the people I love.
Is it enough that I now know who I am and I like me?
One of my little says I repeat to people who question what I do and why I do it is "If you knew what I know, you would do what I do and if you did what I do you'd get what I got." With that being said, here are the picture results for 45 days of leg work.
I will continue the 'project' and keep progressing toward my goals . . . it is enough.