Filling the void.
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Food has long been my everything. I turn to it to fill and then overflow all the holes that I perceive to be in my life. I am learning to fill voids with lasting fillers rather than food. I am making the food serve me as my nourishment rather than my drug of choice. Food can be used as drug if you eat so much that you have to take time to recover and during these times you beat yourself up because you did it again, fell off the wagon and pigged out. After all, drugs are a buffer that we use to not face reality (if abused) and I have learned to do that with food. Reality is not a bad thing. I have been allowed to live a fortunate life and I am just now realizing it. The difficult things in my life will not define me, I will.