Ah, the weekend
Monday, March 07, 2011
Every seems to have a different opinion of what weekends should be. For me personally it is time to catch up on homework, housework, catch up with family/friends and hopefully have a little fun, maybe go out on a date or even get in a couple extra long workouts. For me as of late weekends are a time to sleep in late, housework, homework and little to no fun, it sucks. So while I did do some core on Saturday I decided to quit procrastinating and go check out the places I'd heard about at school and see just what they have to offer in the line of pastry/bakery.
I did finish my presentation on Pasteur for tonight, got some research done on chocolate for my second paper and checked out Midtown Global Market in Minneapolis, specifically Salty Tart and Kitchen in the Market. Great spots and even found some for rent space that could work for a modified version of my business plan. Going to check into rental fees, also need to get back in touch with a woman's entrepreneur program to see what help I can get things rolling and get modified plan on paper plus talk shop owners to have them retail product.
Aside from that not much else. A little reflection yesterday and this morning trying to figure out what I truly want. Weight wise and physical appearance wise I am doing ok and am seeing what I am wanting happen, while slower than I'd like I havent been exactly pushing the envelope so one cannot expect miracles. As for relationships, I am wishy washy. There is a piece of me that enjoys his friendship and when together feel desire for more intimate affections yet really want better than that. Sure as a lover his very giving, as a friend he is very giving but he gives so much that at the end of the day he doesnt have much of anything left to give and then there are hygenie issues.
I am very old fashion is some of the things I want and desire. I am also seeing I have become very me centered and greedy which in some aspects can be good but I like to give be it time or gifts I made or something and I havent been really doing any of that while complaining about people not giving it to me. I believe to get what one wants one has to give it from time to time and sometimes more often than not. I am also beginning to see that if I want to be happy and content in good ways I need to make my own versus looking for it in material ways or others. Example I know for status sake I married my ex, bought the house, etc., it completed the broken picture of what was and made it more traditional yet it wasnt right. He didnt make me happy nor did the house or being married. It made it harder. I like being with just my kids though tougher now that they are older and voicing dislikes for preferences. I like being alone sometimes too. I like sharing new adventures and things I like to do with others but I also like it when others share their interests with me.
I need to find my happy place for me,myself and I. In doing so I believe I will be able to finally find the solid ground I need financially, and personally with work/school/business/relations