Back to HM training I go!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I am afraid to look on how long its been since I first started HM training, and had to stop due to illnesses back to back. I really tried to power through them and not let it derail me. Honest. But coming down with pneumonia than strep twice really took its toll, and cut down on my will to push my long runs.
I've still been running. I think I'll always run, no matter what. The frequency however is different. I went from running x4 to running x1 and subbing my runs for elliptical use. Since it was easier on my lungs and burnt more calories. However, I haven't lost nearly as much that I cut back my running.. so, maybe it's not everything.
Yesterday I decided that I was going to run on the indoor track. I thought about running 60 minutes and was so apprehensive. I hadn't run that long in around two weeks at least, and the thought of getting right back on the horse was scary. So, I decided to do at least 3 miles like I did the other day. I owed it to myself.
Then as I got on the track, I started counting. My timing took a bit of a nose dive, meaning I was up by as much as 30-45 seconds once I realized that I would be going further. I looked at my time 41 minutes for 3 miles (yuck!) and decided that since I was so close, I was going to put in another one while I was it. By the time that I was done, I had hit 4.4 miles and the last lap was triple time.
I was happy. For some reason I thought I didn't have the ability any longer, and I did. I can still train for a HM, it's not too late. I can keep going. And that is exactly what I am going to do. So I am re-starting my HM training as of yesterday. Even though I am slightly paranoid as runs make me retain water.
I checked the scale today and sure enough, I was up 2-3 pounds. I groaned but decided I didn't care. That's right. This is me, not caring.
I've been so focused on this couple few pounds because of what they mean. But they can't mean more than the ultimate goal, which is to get healthy. They can't mean more than my fitness. They can't mean more than my ability to be free. And that is what running gives me. Every time I train, I open the door to do things that I wasn't able to do before. And that my friends, is a form of freedom.
When I started the couch 2 5k, I couldn't run at all. Not even down my block. But once I finished the program, not only could I run 30 minutes in a row.. but I could run miles without stopping. Not just one or two, but three miles at a single time. That was something I couldn't do in high school at my thinnest!
Then after finishing the bridge to 10k, I was able to go farther than I ever had before. I broke the 3 mile barrier I thought I might never cross, and pushed passed it with all I had. And I did.
It was amazing.
This is what I have to keep in mind, and this is why I am turning back to my training instead of the gym. This is giving me back the ability to live. I don't ever want to be in a position when I am outside with my kids or my friends, and they pick an outdoor activity that I can't do. Horseback riding. Kayaing. Soccer. Baseball. Swimming.
Or there is an activity that I want to do, but I can't because I am heavy and my upper body strength sucks. Like pole fitness.
I want to be able to do anything I want to do physically on a whim, because I am fit. That is more important than any number I'll ever see on a scale. And that was what HM training is going to help me get back. One mile at a time.