Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Man! Some days are harder than others, aren't they?
Most of us who choose to run at one point or another hit a mental block. You know. The "I can't do it anymore." "I am dyiiiiiiiiiiiingg" "My feet are gonna fall off!" Those kind of things that get inside our head to get us to admit defeat before we've even really tried. And when we first break that block? There is nothing in the world like it. A bit of self wonder that we DID do it when some part of us was saying we can't, and our feet didn't fall off. It is one of the most amazing feelings in the world.
But smashing through one mental block, doesn't mean that it gets easier to do it. At least, it hasn't for me.
I have that mental block lately every single time I run. Let me tell you. It's annoying. This could be because lately with my training I down to one "long run" a week. When I was running 60 minutes times 4, it was only tough the first few minutes. But this x1 a week? Yikes.
The other thing is now that its spring, I am switching from indoor running to outdoor running.. which there is a world of difference. It is a big adjustment. So even though I just ran 4.4 miles indoors, running 4+ outdoors presented a bigger adjustment. So far, all my runs have been short outside, so thinking about doing something longer. In 40 degree weather, in the rain? Yeah.
I dressed as best as I could and off I went. The first 20-30 minutes? Had been extremely tough. I had started thinking that maybe I should just go back and re-do the entire b25k program, which insane to think about. I didn't run as much for a few weeks, but I was still running at least 1-2 times a week! I shouldn't have had to repeat!!
But I felt myself flagging bad, and the only thing that was pushing me forward was sheer will. I told myself like always, to run down to one of my markers, and I'd see how I felt then. When I got there, I told myself that I was still good, let's see how we did at the next one. Once I got to the next one (hilly), thankfully I was over the 30 minutes and my second wind kicked in. I knew at that point that I was going to be fine, and that I was going to make it back home.
I probably could have ran a bit farther on that sheer grit, and wish I would have, but eh. Goal for next week. I was greatful that I made my distance, especially when my head was telling me "You can't do this anymore. Just stop. Your legs are so tired! Your pace stinks! "
As a result, I am going to have to modify my HM training. I am going to have to do my longer runs at least x2 a week. This once a week stuff is just making it that much harder when I have to actually do it. Not sure if its going to work, but to keep me sane and running, I am going to have to do it.
I really dislike deviating from proven plans, but unless I can think of something else.. looks like I've got to!