TONIGHT SHALL BEGIN A NIGHT OF FACING A FEAR~A BABY STEP TOWARD....REACHING A GOAL!!!!!!! This has truly been a few hours of deep thought in wonder, dare I blog about this, or shall I NOT! HOW FORWARD SHOULD WE BE IN OUR BLOGGING? DO WE LAY IT ALL OUT THERE ON THE TABLE, OR HOLD THE MOST PAINFUL TO OURSELVES? LAYING ALL ON THE TABLE WON. Why in the world would I question this in the first place, when I have always been forth right, open, and honest about more than many would consider sharing????
It all lies in the fact that "reality bites," knowing that locals beyond who I've personally invited through the years are now part of spark. As most of you know, the hair stands on the back of my neck....with the thought of being talked about, rather than "spoken to." Thus would be my reason for wondering, dwelling, and finally resorting to prayer about "HOW OPEN" to be about this particular blog.
God bless the small town members of spark who actually follow me here, without my knowing, and have the "blessed courage to step forward, visiting WITH ME about this journey I am starting again." The Good Lord Knows which ones will be brave enough to encourage me, as well as admit they enjoy, look forward to, or are just astounded (ha) at all I openly post, and like wise he will be fully aware of those who whisper, avoid eye contact with me, AND can't wait to get to my page for the next "SCOOP~" to hash up with "THEIR LITTLE, OR LARGE GROUP." God Knows All, therefore I shall not worry.
Soooo On To Blogging I Go~ head held high, and looking forward to what ever shall come. God already knows, and he has this covered (Thank you Greg, for bringing that to my attention, even though it was something pertaining to your own life).
Tonight shall begin a night of facing a fear of mine~Darkness. It shall be a baby step toward reaching a goal. I've not yet fessed up how much I've back slid weight wise in the last year, but this blog will be a pretty darn good indication. With my husband out of town working, and my daughter still away on her fun summer get away, tonight I await the sun going down. As soon as it does, raining or not(right now there is thunder rolling in the distance), I aim to take off walking (slowly and carefully), in the darkness as not to be watched by many passers by, in the light of day.
Why in the world would I do this when I have a treadmill now? Welllll....I did a bit of manual reading today. I am at that boarder line max weight allowed. If any of you know about static weight, that is your own body weight times how ever many (I can't recall for sure), while moving. So if a piece of work out equipment says it will hold up to 200 lbs, adding full body movement to that will double or triple that weight. Yeahhhh....I'm not taking any chances with this precious gift. Tis time for me to face this serious fear of DARKNESS, drop at least 30-40 lbs. by night time walking, before I give that baby a work out with my body on it.
In past years, I've always been an early morning walker~meaning 4:30 am. It's dark at that time also, and I've lived through it~
. My pep talk had always been, before arriving back home dawn would be on the horizon, as the town was just starting to come to life for the day. This will be an entire different cup of tea; however my worries are small, as I know God will walk with me every step of the way.
.....a baby step toward being able to use my
feeling wonderful, that I've already achieved a 30-40 pound weight loss, and faced my fear of DARKNESS ALONG THE WAY!!!!
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers this night, and many nights following. This I Thank You For ALREADY!!!!!
If I remember to do so, I will create another blog, when that beloved TREADMILL DAY ARRIVES~AND IT SHALL, OF THIS I HAVE NO DOUBT!!!! (SMILING SO BIG)