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Chosing the Healthy Life

Friday, October 21, 2011

Lately I've been struggling with choosing the healthy life. I seem to be constantly obsessed about food and calories. I'll eat really low calorie meals so that I can binge in the evenings on crap like cake mix. I've lost my center. I've lost my desire to make healthy choices in a responsible way. I keep telling myself that part of it is my new living arrangement with roommates, but there's more to it than that. I'm a stress eater, and want to indulge whenever there is something outside my control. It's unhealthy and I know it. I'm not quite sure how to handle these situations, and so I handle them with food.

Because I've been counting calories and doing the Weight Watchers thing, I've also become obsessed with tracking (right up until a binge hits and I chuck it all out this window). Because of this, I'm constantly obsessing about how many points I have left in a day and how much food I can cram in for that number of points. It's pathetic really. I don't eat when I'm hungry, I eat pretty much all the time. Lots of it may be fruit and veg, but lots of it is sugary crap or artificial sugars. It makes me feel sluggish and gross. When I had an office job, I just kept myself on a food schedule. But now that my schedule changes from day to day, I've been having a hard time keeping on track.

Now I make a commitment to myself to take myself seariously. It doesn't matter if the scale reads a steady weight if I'm not eating in a way that's good for me and if I can't maintain a healthy mindset about food. Food is not the be all and end all. I need a chant to that effect. It's 6:48am. It's time to reset, as I've done so many times before. No more crap. I don't want it. I want to be healthy in a truly healthy way. After all, life isn't about the amount of food we consume, but the moments that make up our days and the people we share our lives with. This life starts now. It ends when I die. It's a journey, and I want to take steps forward. Please God help me. I can't do this on my own.
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    find foods that work with your chemistry. i created this meal on my own. i can't seem to loose weight if i eat any grain products. so one day i experimented.

    i make this mixture for breakfast , lunch and dinner. i have lost 32 pounds in 23 weeks. i cook

    4 large portabella mushrooms sliced, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, 4 large onions sliced, 2 large green peppers, 3 cans green beans, 1 can rutabaga and 5 sliced chicken sausages.

    it makes enough for at least 4 days, three meals a day. total cost is 12 dollars. i buy the mushrooms and chicken at sams club. sounds crazy but it taste good and most importantly it's working. i'm not hungry . if i feel the urge to cheat i go get a fork full of my mixture. i chew very slowly as to enjoy my meal.

    i have added a small banana and grapes for my snacks and to be a fix for my sweet tooth.

    you can add other foods into your menu. just know what works with your body chemistry.

    I have gone from 198 to 166 pounds. i can now fit into a size 14 comfortably. i feel so much better. think of carrying a 2 year old around your waist every minute of every day. no i am not done. on the obese chart i have gone from being obese to just plain fat. my goal is to drop another 22 pounds. then i will be happy, healthy and never allow myself to get in this condition again.

    one might say eating the same food every day would get boring. not true. when you look in the mirror and can see the difference it's worth

    3497 days ago
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