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Drug of Choice

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Food is my drug of choice. It is what I reach for when I am bored or sad or angry or just frustrated. So this morning, I am writing here.

I know this is an addiction I have to conquer. It impacts my life in a zillion ways. Yet, it would be so much easier if I did not have to eat. I quit smoking. 5 years clean. But to quit smoking, I simply had to never pick up another smoke as long as I live. I am not a non smoker. I am a smoker who is not smoking. I cannot do that with food.

I know how to loose weight. I know what it entails and what it does not. I know what works for me. I also know that when life sucks I reach for stuff that in large quanities are not good for me. They are part of my diet and when life is good they make the diet work.

Yet at those times when I am feeling stuck or a zillion other unpleasant emotions, I simply eat them. I don't enjoy them or even taste them. I just eat. I have to find a way to win. I refuse to give up. I will find a way.
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  • MERLINANDME
    It is hard for me too. Sometimes I just want to eat. Period. No relationship to hunger or nutritional need. Just wanting to stuff. I don't know if that is an addiction, but I do know it requires work on my part to identify it and walk away from it.
    3468 days ago
  • SASS-I
    you will find a way, the first step to recovery is admitting you have an addiction and then facing it. You are well on your way. Good luck to you! emoticon
    3471 days ago
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