December 31st - Still here, doing well
Saturday, December 31, 2011
At least, I think I am!
I'm not sure. But still. I hope so.
Anyways, onward; the reason I haven't been posting here so much is because, from December 21st, I've been writing Morning Pages. This is a creative exercise similar to a journal, and it involves spending a little while (for me, usually about 15 minutes) writing 3 pages of free association writing. After doing so I'm usually raring to go and get on with things; I don't want to write another journal entry here! I'm going to try, though, and use this as a more focused journal where I think about the things I say. If I can do this one 3 times a week, I'll be happy.
First off, I'm happier in myself, more cheerful. Still a bit down, quite teary, but that's to be expected I suppose bearing in mind I'm going through a break-up right now. I'm not as financially screwed as I had initially feared; I have about £30 to see me through until mid January (in theory, I'll be getting some money on Friday 6th but I'll have to wait and see) so I should be okay. I've paid rent, I have food in the house (not all of it as healthy as I would like; there's some lamb and pork, but I'm going to be good about what I do with it) for at least the next month, and I've got enough gas and electricity to see me through until the same time, hopefully. Depends on how cold it is. So that £30 is pretty much emergency/extra money.
I'm going to try and be good with it, but plan to buy some almonds today to make this chicken tex mex dish a friend of mind recommended to me. That way tomorrow I can use the leftovers with some lettuce to make low-fat tortilla wraps for lunch; should be super yummy! I'm not doing too well with my exercising, but I'm spending a lot of time on my feet at work and I'm walking to and from at significant speed; about 3.5 mph, 15 minutes, there and again to get me back.
Anyways, I'm off to chill out before work I guess. I have like, 20 minutes before I have to go and get ready; too much time to do nothing, not enough time to do anything substantial! How does that figure? Ah well. I'm sure I'll find something to waste it on.