Visit with Dad
Saturday, April 28, 2012
We are back from visiting Dad in the hospital. It is about 2 hours 1 way to visit him in the hospital. He is in a locked ward in a small town. I feel so much more peaceful after seeing him. He is still very angry, with Mom, Eric and I. But that's OK, because he is where he needs to be. He is on several antidepressants and a med to improve his cognitive function. He is also cooperating with the counseling. I suppose he will be there another week. I would imagine we will begin looking for a nursing home for him on Monday. I don't think he is ready for that yet, but hopefully he will be by the time he is discharged.
Right now, I am sitting in front of a fire catching up on SP. I have joined the, "Official Spring into Shape" Bootcamp challenge. I have never joined a challenge before and am enjoying it so far. The videos are good. I am needing a little extra push in the strength training department. I am feeling a little stressed so I will definitely not miss my cardio. Not sure if it will be a video or if we will go up to the club.
I am feeling ready to break the 150 mark. I have had a mental block about it. I guess I am afraid I will begin to plateau. Makes no sense really, to self-sabotage. You know, not really doing anything wrong, but just not giving 100% to my exercise and healthy eating habits.
I guess part of it is that I am at the 1/2 point on my weight loss journey. 25 pounds gone, 25 more to go. Every pound that I lose is now on the down hill side. I've had to restrain myself from lowering my weight loss goal. I've lost weight many times before only to regain all of it and then some. I am afraid I won't be able to maintain my healthy new lifestyle. But, it's OK, as long as I love what I am doing, I won't be tempted to quit.