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Visit with Dad

Saturday, April 28, 2012

We are back from visiting Dad in the hospital. It is about 2 hours 1 way to visit him in the hospital. He is in a locked ward in a small town. I feel so much more peaceful after seeing him. He is still very angry, with Mom, Eric and I. But that's OK, because he is where he needs to be. He is on several antidepressants and a med to improve his cognitive function. He is also cooperating with the counseling. I suppose he will be there another week. I would imagine we will begin looking for a nursing home for him on Monday. I don't think he is ready for that yet, but hopefully he will be by the time he is discharged.

Right now, I am sitting in front of a fire catching up on SP. I have joined the, "Official Spring into Shape" Bootcamp challenge. I have never joined a challenge before and am enjoying it so far. The videos are good. I am needing a little extra push in the strength training department. I am feeling a little stressed so I will definitely not miss my cardio. Not sure if it will be a video or if we will go up to the club.

I am feeling ready to break the 150 mark. I have had a mental block about it. I guess I am afraid I will begin to plateau. Makes no sense really, to self-sabotage. You know, not really doing anything wrong, but just not giving 100% to my exercise and healthy eating habits.

I guess part of it is that I am at the 1/2 point on my weight loss journey. 25 pounds gone, 25 more to go. Every pound that I lose is now on the down hill side. I've had to restrain myself from lowering my weight loss goal. I've lost weight many times before only to regain all of it and then some. I am afraid I won't be able to maintain my healthy new lifestyle. But, it's OK, as long as I love what I am doing, I won't be tempted to quit.
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    I am glad too for your peace of mind and heart you are feeling right now. I can hear it come through in your words.

    Do not let yourself start to talk you into things that will lead to self sabatoge. Do not dwell on past weight loss failures.
    Stay positive.... you are coming up on some hard times and you will be vulnerable. Keep yourself aware of that, then you will be able to fight off the temptations to stray off course.

    Your dad is in the best place for him right now. They will care for him and maybe he will be having a change of heart when he is sober for a few days.'At least you could hope so ,,,,
    take care
    3383 days ago
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    I to am glad that you are at peace with your decisions, I know how hard they are to make.

    You can keep up this journey, you are doing such a great job!!
    3383 days ago
    I'm glad you're dad is where he needs to be. That has to be a weight off your shoulders.

    I joined the Boot camp, too. I don't really do any strength training (bad me!) so I figured this was a good way to get into it.

    This time, hun, the weight will stay off because you're changing your lifestyle and you have a whole community of support right here at Spark.

    3383 days ago
    make sure u go online to look for a good nursing home, they have how they are rated on there. good luck!
    3385 days ago
    So glad to hear that your Dad is getting the med support he needs, and that you are feeling better about things.

    I am sure you will do very well at your challenge, and that the second part of your journey will be fine. I think because we have failed in the past to keep the weight off, we almost talk ourselves into failure when we get anywhere near to target again. The difference this time is that you have already made a lot of lifechanging eating habits, and you have all of us to support you when you are on your maintenance programme. So onward to the healthier and happier you.
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    3385 days ago
    I'm glad you're at peace with the decision. You're doing the right thing, I hope that you find a compatible nursing home for him.

    I hope you are able to get past that mental block and gain momentum in your journey.
    3385 days ago
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