I somehow forgot
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Over the last few weeks, there are things I forgot. It is all coming back to me now.
I forgot how much I love the taste of fresh fruit!
I forgot how much I love having dinners planned so I am not thinking about it all day, making last minute runs to the store and being unprepared.
I forgot how much I love the feel of my "spark".
I forgot about being excited about having a "good day".
I forgot how much I hate weaning off sugar.
I forgot how much I love a simple applesauce cup and the pride that I feel because I didnt just shove a handful of chips in my mouth instead.
I forgot that I am not the same person I was nearly 3 years and 50 pounds ago. (yes it hurt to write 50 instead of the 70 I had lost!!)
I forgot to remember why I started on this healthier path.
I forgot to look at going for a walk with Frank and Stitchy as a treat, not just something I HAD to do. (I also forgot what it felt like to watch him walking my dog while I followed behind in my pick up because I COULD NOT DO IT!)
I forgot how out of breathe I used to be. Im not anymore.
(I was at a new years party that was 2 story. The food and women were upstairs, the men and drinks were downstairs. I walked up those stairs (there were 18 of them...I counted) at least 10 -12 times. I WOULD NEVER have done that before. Ever! I would have had Frank bring me drinks and stay up with the grub!).
I forgot how far I have come.
I forgot how far I still need to go.
I forgot how perfect the new year is for getting back on track.
But I am remembering now. And if feels wonderful.