Letting the Past Stay in the Past
Tuesday, February 05, 2013
It's funny how easily you can spot self destructive behavior in others but for some reason, justify your own!
Case in point - I'm always telling my 3 daughters NOT to dwell on the mistakes they made yesterday. Learn from them, do better, and carry on. Simple!
EXCEPT I'm the freaking Olympic Champion of rehashing my own poor choices and constantly beating myself up for them. Every day. Sometimes ALL day.
One of the first thoughts I had when I opened my eyes this morning was "You have the body you deserve." This was not in an inspirational type of tone. This was a "How could you do this to yourself!?" tone. A "You are pathetic for letting your body get this bad!" tone. I'm sure most of us, unfortunately, knows exactly the tone I'm talking about.
Funny though, the second thought I had was "You can't wait to lose weight to begin to respect yourself. When you respect yourself, you'll take better care of your body. So GET OVER IT - today's a new day. Embrace it and be healthy!"
I'm really trying to practice what I preach. I'm not going to make excuses for letting myself get this big and out of shape. We all have trials and tribulations to deal with. I have SO much to be grateful for. Wallowing in negativity and self disgust is just selfish. Besides, I have three human beings that I brought into this world that can smell hypocrisy from 50 feet away. They'll watch how I treat myself to figure out how to treat themselves. I don't want my legacy to be one of self doubt and unworthiness. Nope. That is baggage I do not want them to carry. Just like I don't want to carry my past poor choices around. It's not yesterday that counts anymore, it's what I'm doing now!