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Monday, March 25, 2013

I'm not sure where to begin on this blog. But my purpose is to begin to become happier and stronger. Right now, I am struggling with insomnia and depression. Because of this my weight is slowly creeping up. I'm not sure which comes first the insomnia or the depression. I think it's the insomnia causing the depression, but it's really hard to say after everything that has happened.

I do take a trycylic antidepressant to help me sleep. Without taking it I am up more than I am asleep. But even with it I am only getting about 4-6 hours a night. I need to take my Mom to a doctor appointment this week, so can't take any more time off at end of the month. I will need to see the doctor next week. I so do not want to go.

So, this week, my goal is simple. I want to resume doing some of the things I used to enjoy doing. I want to stick to a schedule since I seem to do best. So, Monday, Wednesday, Friday I will work out at the club. I may not run/ jog maybe just walk. I don't think it matters as long as I begin the routine. Tuesday/ Thursday if there is sunshine and warm weather a short walk after work would be great.

I know these first steps will be the hardest, but I just have to remember that these are things I really like doing.
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    Acknowledging you need to change something is the first step, doing something about it is the second. Keep on doing the best thing for you!
    3054 days ago
    I'm so proud of you taking this first step - having a person in my house who battles depression and insomnia, I know how hard it is to rile yourself to get moving.

    I think sticking to a schedule is your best bet. Good luck with it all, my friend.
    3054 days ago
    Routines are good as long as you are not so depressed that you need a forklift to come and get you out of bed. So rather than setting yourself up, pick one goal that you want to do. After you have been successful with that goal for a week or two then add another one.
    Sleep - the sometimes elusive but necessary ingredient for a good life. You may have developed a tolerance to your medication and need to increase or change it. Little sleep means stress which means increased cortisol resulting in weight gain. Now there is a good reason to see your doctor.
    Consistency is the key and asking for help from your doctor, friends and family. Do not underestimate depression and insomnia. They feed off each other and can wreak havoc on your life.
    Good luck at getting back on track.
    By the way, I speak from experience - 35 years worth.
    3054 days ago
    I also do better on a schedule and since I don't have a job right now, you'd think that would mean I have more time for this stuff. However, the depression is getting to me and I just want to hide and do what I want. I'm running out of money and time though so I know I need to get off my butt and do better. I love your plan of getting back into a routine! You will find that it helps a lot. I know I feel more in control and less likely to give into cravings or bad feelings if I have a plan. Keep up the awesome work!
    3054 days ago
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