This is tough!
Monday, April 22, 2013
Hello! If you're reading this, you might be rubbing your eyes and saying, "Is that you, Natalie??" Yeah, it's me! I just went browsing through this site and realized how much I have missed it! I used to be so excited to get on and track everything. So what happened? Well, for one thing, Chick-Fil-A happened! I started working there a year ago this month..and I have access to free coke (a weakness) and free fried chicken, fries, dessert...you get the picture. I'm actually amazed that I haven't gained more than I have. I am 180 and I think my body must just get stuck there because I haven't gotten above that ever and I know how bad I've eaten over the past year. UGH!
A few weeks ago I just got sick of it. I stopped drinking coke and I started eating only grilled nuggets or salads (with fat free dressing...don't be fooled by our dressings! They are so high fat!) But the scale hasn't moved in a month. So last week, I started running again. Oh my goodness, it has been amazing. I love LOVE how I feel after a run! So why did I ever stop? Lots of reasons/excuses. I get stressed out with school (college senior here...and ready to be DONE!) and then I tell myself that I deserve that food. It is comfort. I have to change that. Comfort has to stop being FOOD.
My boyfriend has been working out hard pretty steadily now and has really started to see changes. He has always been normal weight (and can eat whatever he wants--UGH!) but has not been so muscular! I'm really proud of him...but totally jealous, too. I think that's a good thing, though.
We're going to the beach in June. I've got two months to get my rear in gear. But more importantly, I HAVE to start treating myself right! I think I am rewarding myself when I eat junk. No. A reward should be treating my body right. Because I'm worth it.