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Slipping Backwards Mentally

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

I figure so many more things out when I write, although I have no idea why. I started writing a journal entry to myself a little while ago and realized why I'm struggling so much recently. I'm slipping backwards mentally. I have almost an all or nothing mentality anymore. I feel like nothing I do is enough, so why bother. I don't just mean with being healthy, with everything. I feel like I'm in a hole physically, financially, socially that I will never crawl out of.

I have become incapable of breaking things up into manageable chunks or being happy with small steps and small improvements. I'm not sure exactly why I am back in this place mentally. I was doing really well and was making a great deal of progress but it all seems to have gone out the window.

Even this blog feel insufficient to me. I feel like I'm rambling, like I have no point or no focus to it. It's not a fun feeling. I feel like I should have an answer, be able to plan it all out and figure it all out and make it all better and yet it isn't that simple I know.
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    I read all the replies. I agree with the one idea, of going back to the basics, like tracking food, exercise for 10 min or ?? Drinking the water. I also like the saying:
    This Too Shall Pass....

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    2935 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5127867
    I know it sounds simplistic, but when I feel like that, I go back to the basics - tracking food, getting enough water, and making sure I rest enough.

    You have a binary personality, which is why the "all or nothing" mentality rules your life.

    But, when you're in the nothing cycle it's important to look for things you can accomplish or be successful at. For example, you shampooed two rooms over the weekend. That's a MAJOR accomplishment.
    2936 days ago
    I can understand some of those feelings - pointless. why blog, why try.. I think everything happens for a reason. For instance, I needed to hear someone else today voice the feelings of 'why bother' that I am having this week. I don't feel so alone now, and I thank you for that.

    Stay focused on having a plan rather than an answer. Plans can change, but they're better than doing nothing.

    I hope you feel better soon.
    2936 days ago
    Life is but a journey, emoticon . We are never given more than we can handle, although sometimes it feels like we have way to much to handle @ once. When life gives you a lemon, make lemonade, When life give you a glass half empty (think of it half full) & add lots of greatness to it. You are a strong person & will get through this slump, just take long deep breaths & work with moment to moment until you can get day by day. emoticon

    2937 days ago
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