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Ready to cry :( (vent post)

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Now that I'm on a challenge team I weigh in every Wednesday and today I hit my highest non-pregnant. It makes me sad, angry, frustrated, and so many other negative emotions. I also really want to light up!!

Brief backstory: in January I quit smoking and also slacked off on the exercise and food tracking ( was overwhelmed with school). So I expected some weight gain. The in the middle of May I got slightly motivated and started adding back in some sporadic exercise. Over the 6 months that I either did nothing or was sporadic I gained 14 pounds. Not the best but considering I was doing nothing, not the worst either (roughly 1/2 a pound a week average).

Flash forward to today and I have been improving my healthy habits everyday. For the past two weeks I have exercised more than I probably did in the whole six months. I am making healthier food choices (still need to work on it in the evenings) and tracking for the better part of the day (again slacking off in the evenings) and drinking plenty of water. So in short what hasn't improved has stayed the same. And then I get on the scale and poof 3 pounds gained in two weeks!! Grrr!!! So cranky now!!! I know it's a work in progress and it takes time to lose, and all those supportive tips, but really I went backwards!! I want to go have a smoke, a bowl of ice cream, and a handful of diet pills all at the same time (okay so not really just providing a visual for my feelings). Okay rant over, time to move on....
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  • BETTERME369
    First, you must recognize that you've made several NSVs. Quitting smoking is huge and one of the best things you can do for your body! I'm so proud of you for taking on the challenge! The other is being able to vent and not turn to the smoking, food or pills.

    Now step back, take a deep breath and evaluate your plan. Are you recording everything you eat, measuring food, etc. Be honest with yourself. This is my struggle... I've been so bad lately. I will do great all day but then not measure out my dinner or I'll skip breakfast. You really must be diligent. And although I don't smoke, I'm with you on the diet cocktail. It's so tempting to give into the latest FAD pill that promises the world, but we all know they don't work. So stay the course and you'll make it! One day at a time!
    2957 days ago
  • FORBANDE
    I second all of these wonderful comments. They are right, stay the course and trust the process. You may have weeks where you are up and then weeks with big losses. Our bodies are complex machines that we have to love regardless. And yes, I know this is definitely easier said than done.

    Hang in there! You've GOT this! Oh, and great job using your blog to vent. Much better than your cigarette, ice cream, diet pill cocktail.
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    2960 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12207279
    emoticon You are worth the effort!
    2961 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12535725
    The steps you've taken to improve your health far outweigh any silly number on a scale. Don't give up on yourself--you matter too much to quit now. I bet next week will be vastly different!
    2961 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12001296
    Great job quitting smoking!!! I quit 5 years ago. It was the hardest and best thing I've ever done for myself.

    Stupid scale!!! I hate how bad it can make us feel.

    I hope you brush it off and feel better soon!
    2961 days ago
  • TKOVACH1
    Keep at it, one bad weigh in is not enough to derail all the wonderful things you have been doing. If you continue I'm sure all your new healthy habits will pay off.
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    2961 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4856320
    Don't let this one weigh in define your efforts. It could be a number of reasons, that this particular weigh in ended as it did. Maybe some water retention from a little more salt in-take, maybe the exercise your doing is paying off and you are GAINING muscle, which will help burn more fat later... lots of reasons. Keep doing what you are doing - eating healthy, drinking lots of water, exercising - AND keep blogging to get out these frustrations.
    And one more thing - it's PURE AWESOME that you quit smoking. I'm working on that now.
    Take care.
    2962 days ago
  • ORCHIDLADY56
    It is okay - you quit smoking, you are practicing healthy habits..... don't let some artificial number on a scale blow your confidence. You are doing the right things. emoticon
    2962 days ago
  • SASSYRUNNERGURL
    Ok Diamond Girl, so it was a bad weigh in, no problem you are not smoking GREAT! you are drinking more water WONDERFUL! you are adding fittness mins Awesome, you got this let the scale catch up with your changes. Maybe you had more sodium than ususal the last couple of days, maybe your fiber intake is off, those are always killers for me! I also struggle with tracking at night. But I am finiding if I track before I put it in my mouth either I choice to eat it or think twice about it, and sometimes the craving stops!
    You got this diamond girl dont be so hare on yourself! One day at a time!
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    2962 days ago
  • CHOCOHOLIC2276
    Don't despair, it could be you ate some salty food the night before. Take a deep breath and keep pushing. It's not easy BUT it WILL be worth it. YOU are worth is emoticon
    2962 days ago
  • BERRIESINLA
    Hang in there. Even if you are not losing, the workouts are making you stronger and healthier.
    2962 days ago
  • RUNNER4LIFE08
    I understand your frustration. Sometimes we can do everything right and our body responds differently than we had hoped. But there is light at the end of the tunnel... we just have to keep walking. Hang in there! And we are all here for support dazzling Diamond!!!
    2962 days ago
  • VALYNN26
    Hang in there diamond!! I had the same thing this week, a 4 lb gain. I was really bummed this morning, but then I got to thinking.. the scale does not define me. It sure plays with our emotions though. Just emoticon emoticon


    *and btw I quit smoking 4 yrs ago & still to this day, I sometimes crave a smoke. don't give though, you'll just feel worse about it later. Hang in there. You can do it* emoticon
    2962 days ago
  • MISHAMW
    Dude, I totally understand. I had a little "time off" from working out and eating well, and gained 12 or so pounds. I started working out and really watching what I was eating, and the scale kept going up. I ended up gaining another 4 pounds or so durning the first 9 weeks of working out. It was a combination of muscles and the fact that I wasn't eating as well as I thought. Maybe you should take a second look at your food choices (I know I was eating way to much fat to get my protein high enough).

    Good luck, and congratulation on quitting smoking. I can't stress how amazing that is. My parents smoke, and it's awful. I would do anything to get them too stop. I am so proud of you (even though I don't know you). Really AWESOME!!!!
    2962 days ago
  • SHANSHE
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    2962 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12513988
    One foot in front of the other:you just keep moving forward until you reach the goal :)
    2962 days ago
  • DETERMINEDAPRIL
    Sorry you're having a rough week! Hang in there and trust the process! emoticon
    2962 days ago
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