Wednesday, November 06, 2013
I don't even know where to start.
I've tried to write this blog a dozen times over the past several months, each time no easier than the time before.
I've noticed the absence of some of my Spark friends in the past and I've wondered what happened to them. Some I know are active on other sites or Facebook. Some have gotten their weight and lives under control and don't need the support Sparkpeople provides. Some I have no idea where they went or what happened to them. One friend was in an abusive relationship and I can't help but wonder... Another friend, a new mother, died. Some, like myself simply get busy, and life happens.
Well... I'm back.
I'm back, but I'm not the same person I was when I went AWOL.
On August 21st, eleven weeks ago today, I lost the love of my life. I lost my best friend and partner in crime. My boyfriend of just over 10 years was killed in a motorcycle accident. Mark was traveling home after taking a ride on a beautiful, hot afternoon, when the driver of a pick up truck made a left turn in front of him. I don't know if the driver simply did not look, or if he just thought he had time to make the turn, but whatever happened, his left turn changed my life forever.
I'm not looking for sympathy or advice, and I'm not entirely ready to answer questions regarding Mark's accident. The reason for my blog is to give a partial explanation for my absence. If you're a believer, I could use your prayers. If you're a hater, just avoid me - I've been through enough.
I don't believe that "time heals." I do believe that I'll adjust.