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Monday, July 07, 2014

I'm so annoyed with myself. I don't want to be as heavy as I am. I don't want to see that number. I don't want to lose my breath doing the easiest of things. I've felt like this for years.

I start...I just don't continue. GAH!!

I have the tools. I buy the food. And then I just throw away all the food. I just spent $80 bucks buying groceries to eat well. And then I went out and bought a burrito from a Mexican place. And most of my groceries have not been put away in the kitchen. Because the good stuff I bought last week needs to be thrown out. What is that?! Who does this?!

I'm pissed because I weighed myself this morning...209.4

Really?! Definitely not my heavist weight. But a few months ago I hit a great goal...I was under 200!! You'd think that milestone would be what I needed!!

And I kept saying, Sunday, gonna buy all my stuff, gonna wake up Monday morning and do Day One of the 21 Day Fix.

I did not wake up and do the Fix. So I planned all day to ride my bike at the park.
I think I rode for 10 minutes because I just couldn't breathe.

I'm so frustrated :(
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    I KNOW how frustrating this process is. I did many many diets like "21 day fix" and atkins and all those things for which i bought all the supplies, set myself up, then did not execute at all. I am not saying I am a "fixed" person, but I would say that so far what my wife (the LOVELY Cheetara) and I have done that works for us, is to make incredibly small changes, but only make changes we can stick with forever, then don't add new changes until a small change is integrated. We have been working on this for a long time and we have a long way to go, but from everything we have read it is the only real way to go. The secret is there is no secret, or magic pill, or spell that will allow you to make your changes quickly. You have to just put in the work, set ACHIEVABLE goals, and be patient with yourself. I used to start every diet and training working towards running a marathon and they all failed. The goal that started the healthy living plan that worked was a 1/3 of a mile walk around the pond across the street from my house.
    2578 days ago
    Don't try and change everything all at once! Break it down into small steps and tackle them one at a time. For example, for the next week do 10 minutes of exercise every other day. Just 10 minutes.

    The week after that, add another step like drinking 8+ glasses of water every day.

    Don't give up but also don't try to change everything drastically. It's overwhelming. Small steps work better.
    2580 days ago
  • UNICORN212
    From what I see, you do not have a plan for the food so it gets wasted. Make up a meal plan and then buy, or as soon as you put it away, make the meal plan. If you have a plan, follow it, though you can also plan for some flexibility. Keep working on it!
    2580 days ago
    I am right there with you!!! Seems I take 5 steps forward and 4 backwards the process just seems so slow! But I know that at least I am NOT giving up!! I am going to keep on keeping on until I get it right! So hang in there and do not lose sight of where you want to be and you will get there!!
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    2580 days ago
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