Here we go again.
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Yep. Another try. You would think I'd be black and blue from as many times I have fallen off this 'wagon'. Sometimes I wonder why I keep trying. I really want to, I really do. Even as I sit here I feel like a failure.
This site is awesome. So many great tools at my disposal and what do I do? Talk big and go gung ho for a week then it falls by the wayside when I get stressed or sidetracked. Then find myself eating whatever I can find.
The sad thing is, what should be motivating me is working against me. I think back to what I once was and my health problems now and I get depressed. I feel horrible for letting myself get to this point (mainly for allowing myself to balloon while pregnant. You know, the 'I can eat for two' thing). Then there's the issues where I feel either tired or sore so I tell myself I'll exercise later. Either way, it's a fail.
I can read motivational articles til my eyes blur. It helps for awhile, then like I said, I slide back into my rut. How will I ever get my bearings back?