Losing my emotional baggage...
Monday, April 06, 2015
I've come to realize that weight loss is a lot of dealing with emotional baggage that we have that got us to where we are today.
Last year I went through a really emotional time that hurt me emotionally and so I took it out on myself and ate, and then I ate some more! I had already gained weight from being in college, but because of the emotional turmoil I was in I gained 20 more lbs on top of that getting me to my all time highest weight. I hated my body and it took a long time to be able to accept me for the new person I was. It wasn't easy and it wasn't until I had gotten through the worst of the emotional pain that I was able to accept that I had gained weight and the gaining stopped.
For many months I lived with the weight and although I didn't like how I looked or felt I was accepting of the fact that it was how I was and I wasn't hurting myself by gaining more weight.
This year I wanted to change and get back to ME! I knew I couldn't go back to the way I was before the emotional trauma, because it has changed me and I'm a new person, but I wanted to get back to the way I felt about myself before it happened.
I have lost about 20 lbs getting me back to the weight I was before the emotional trauma. I've noticed such a huge change in my appearance and in my attitude. I may not be at my goal weight, but I'm on my way there and I already feel more like my goal self than I have in a really long time!
Losing my "emotional" weight has helped me move on from the trauma as well. I have gotten rid of some of my "baggage" in the form of weight and it honestly feels like a weight off my shoulders lol.
Also it feels good to finally be able to lose more than 5 lbs at a time. I've always been able to lose 5lbs, but then I give up, but not this time! This time I am changing my life for the better and for the long haul!
To all of you out there who are struggling with something difficult, you are not along. Remember to take care of yourself because no matter what you ARE WORTH IT! The best thing you can do is take care of yourself emotionally and physically!
Have a great week sparkers!