Why do I want to lose weight?
Saturday, July 04, 2015
I want to lose weight to feel better about myself.
I want to lose weight to become healthier.
I want to lose weight to ease the pain in all of my joints.
I want to lose weight to move better.
I want to lose weight to love what I see in the mirror.
I want to lose weight to have an easier time shopping for clothes.
I have found there are some things that are more difficult to do being at a higher weight (238 currently). Like painting my toe nails is difficult. Sometimes tying my shoes can be difficult. I have found a few rub spots sore things on my thighs as of lately. I am finding that is very embarrassing to me even though I am the only that knows they are there, but still it shows I have completely let myself go. I have found stretch marks higher up on my stomach which I have been calling my obesity warrior marks just to take the uneasiness I am feeling about them.
However, I have been failing as of lately on my consistency with food calorie ranges. It makes me wonder how bad do I really want this. I could say I am comfortable, but I am really not comfortable at all. I am very uncomfortable.
I believe it is because change isn't always easy and my main support is online. Not much in my 3d life. I have learned from my past experience losing weight the people around you get very uncomfortable and can get very mean. Some may be okay with it at first and actually help you, then some of them do a complete 180 and leave you thinking WTH happened.
Life is hard, but I rather be smaller and stronger than at this size and deal with life.