Struggling and Change
Sunday, August 30, 2015
I am struggling honestly right now. Depression is knocking on my door; well, it has been knocking there for a while and I keep trying to deal with it on my own, by using my blue light and exercise. I have been trying to not go back on medication since the side effects are awful and I only seem to need it for roughly 90 days or so. That's the pattern anyways over the last couple of years. It has been closer to a year I think since the last time I had any of the medication.
I then got test anxiety for my Limited Scope X-Ray Exam that was yesterday. I got that done so no worries there now that is over. When I have test anxiety I tend to eat more things than I should and not the so great things either.
What have I learned is that if I eat a muffin such as a Costco Blueberry type of one I feel so miserable and bloated afterwards it isn't funny. Then about an hour later a headache comes on and then some intestinal stuff starts to happen. That is NOT any fun. It didn't used to be that bad with me, now it is. The older I get the more sensitivities I seem to get. Better yet if I have anything with a lot of sugar in it I get the same symptoms.
Today I baked zucchini, banana muffins and I tested one and I felt not so good and bloated now. I did use wheat flour. So, this could be flour/sugar combo thing happening. I have a birthday party thing to attend to tonight and in reality not feeling so hot. I also made the most unhealthy ever for the birthday party called "cookie salad" it was requested and I don't eat that as I make it because I know I won't feel good.
I am thinking that there is a flour/sugar combo thing that my body is actually sensitive to. What is my plan? It will be 1) clean up my eating. 2) try to decrease flour/sugar combo's. This is a huge deal for me and I will start slow and won't cold turkey it. I need to make it a good habit and not let it go into deprivation type of thing.
I am going to start with that first at this point time.
That is all for right now.