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Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Here I go again...
I started my journey (again) at the first of 2014 at the weight of 284.4# (my highest weight), almost 2 years later I have brought it down 40# to 244.4#. It is a SLOW progression down but I have not given up on myself. My big goal is to get down to my "starting weight" from 2000 of 220#. In my mind, I know what to do, I have the tools to succeed but I get in a rut, and move backward and then do the 2 steps forward, 1 step back dance.

I lost my job of 26 years on Friday 9/11/15. I thought I would be devastated if I ever lost this job, but oddly I am rejoicing at the fact that I am free from insane deadlines that I could not meet, (because they were absolutely insane!) I'm free from working over 40 hours a week, every week and some weeks not getting a day off because I was on call for the rotating weekend. I'm free from my evil boss and free from a for profit corporation that really does not value people like they say they do. Salary is NOT a good thing....it's a ticket to more work, and less pay. Anyway, the point I am trying to get to is that I sacrificed family time and personal time and my health for a stupid job.

Time to live and re-create my life to be what I want it to be.

My first course of action is working on my health. I joined the Biggest Loser Challenge again this fall to help hold myself accountable. I want to have the energy and the body to do the things I want to do. Lugging around 70 extra pounds of weight is HARD on my body, my back, my knees, my ankles...my self esteem. So, I will strive to emoticon the fat to the curb and send it emoticon (packing) for good.

Life, I don't even know what I want to do when I grow up. There's a big world out there. I know I plan to spend more time with the hubby and my Mom. I lost valuable time with my Dad and that continues to weigh heavy on my heart. I want to re-explore my hobbies, learn new things and have fun again. So that is what I will do!

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  • STARLITNIGHT
    Hope you are doing well now! Miss you, and wishing you the best.
    1777 days ago
  • LIMOM2TWINS
    I just read your blog and the peace that I felt jump off the page is amazing!! Embrace it! I am also currently in my life at a point that getting laid off would be super scary to me but a possible blessing. You took something negative and it sounds like making it a huge positive one that will definitely benefit your life and your family!! emoticon IT IS YOUR TIME NOW!!! emoticon emoticon
    2057 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/23/2015 7:51:33 AM
  • GORIANA
    Sounds like a good plan. Good luck finding your course. I am trying to figure another way too. Good luck.
    2062 days ago
  • SUNKISSEDSOUL
    You are strong and positive. I am sure everything will fall into place for you.
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    2062 days ago
  • GAILANN48
    Wonderful blog! I'm so happy for you that you get this chance to reboot and to put the things in your life that you want to be there. Hooray for the rest of your life! :)
    2062 days ago
  • GRLTAZ
    First... emoticon !! You are a fighter or you would not be back. Unfortunately, the past is 20-20 and un do- able. Trick is to accept it for what it is and learn the life lesson so you can move on and enjoy the life you have left. I want to travel in an RV when I grow up and retire. 15 years and counting down. I value my past and feel I have learned from it. Many blessings and NO SLACKING OFF !! LOL !!! Keep pushing !
    2062 days ago
  • ERIN_POSCH
    So proud of you for taking a stand for your self and remaining positive through it all. I'm sure you will succeed in all that you believe you can achieve. (((HGUS)))
    2063 days ago
  • IDICEM
    Great attitude!
    2063 days ago
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