Going down, while coming up.
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Here I go again...
I started my journey (again) at the first of 2014 at the weight of 284.4# (my highest weight), almost 2 years later I have brought it down 40# to 244.4#. It is a SLOW progression down but I have not given up on myself. My big goal is to get down to my "starting weight" from 2000 of 220#. In my mind, I know what to do, I have the tools to succeed but I get in a rut, and move backward and then do the 2 steps forward, 1 step back dance.
I lost my job of 26 years on Friday 9/11/15. I thought I would be devastated if I ever lost this job, but oddly I am rejoicing at the fact that I am free from insane deadlines that I could not meet, (because they were absolutely insane!) I'm free from working over 40 hours a week, every week and some weeks not getting a day off because I was on call for the rotating weekend. I'm free from my evil boss and free from a for profit corporation that really does not value people like they say they do. Salary is NOT a good thing....it's a ticket to more work, and less pay. Anyway, the point I am trying to get to is that I sacrificed family time and personal time and my health for a stupid job.
Time to live and re-create my life to be what I want it to be.
My first course of action is working on my health. I joined the Biggest Loser Challenge again this fall to help hold myself accountable. I want to have the energy and the body to do the things I want to do. Lugging around 70 extra pounds of weight is HARD on my body, my back, my knees, my ankles...my self esteem. So, I will strive to
the fat to the curb and send it
(packing) for good.
Life, I don't even know what I want to do when I grow up. There's a big world out there. I know I plan to spend more time with the hubby and my Mom. I lost valuable time with my Dad and that continues to weigh heavy on my heart. I want to re-explore my hobbies, learn new things and have fun again. So that is what I will do!