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Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Hi All,

I have found now that I am heavier (fatter and out of shape) for the first time in my life, that I am having a hard time with self image. All of my life I was a "my body is my temple" type of person who only ate healthy and worked out every day to keep my body healthy, strong and in shape. Unfortunately I went into image denial when a Pituitary Brain Tumor hit me hard causing major body changes and side effects.

After open cranial brain surgery and ten years of doctors trying to "get a handle" on my endocrine system, nothing is working and it has grown back again. Over the years when I would complain I was EXTREMELY TIRED AND GAINING WEIGHT some infuriating/placating doctor comments over the years were/are..."You can't be 20 again, be realistic." or "You're getting older now." or " 10 pounds in 60 days isn't anything to worry about." or "You can handle this extra weight because you are tall and you gain it all over -- you're lucky!"

So now I can hardly drag myself out of bed in the morning and lift a cup of green tea to my lips. LOL I am also (after dieting for 2 years) 52 pounds over my regular weight and very, very out of shape.

This brings me to SELF IMAGE. I had bought into the wrong assumption that since I wasn't the person I was previously I WASN'T AS WORTHY OR AS ATTRACTIVE! SparkPeople helped readjust my thinking on this and get me "back on the right way of looking at myself."

In closing I want to share a photo that MOTIVATES AND REMINDS ME... SELF IMAGE IS EVERYTHING!

Best regards,

Wonder--Woman Cathe'

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    emoticon emoticon , emoticon & emoticon Blog! emoticon For sharing your blog with me! Cathe, I'm sorry for ally of your misfortune! I went through all of that! Then I went on WW a few times, then I went on Nutrisystems a few times, I quit both of them. Then I started putting on weight & went on Spark People, of course by that time I'm a Controlled type 2 Diabetic. When I was on WW, I became a Controlled Type 2 Diabetic. I couldn't keep my blood sugar up. It would always bottom out. I was always eating peanut butter. Then I would gain weight the next week. That's when I quit WW, plus as soon as I quit the price went up on WW. I hope this helps somewhat. I hope you have a Terrific & Blessed Tuesday! lyl ( lyl means love you linda) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2137 days ago
    I think the important thing is not how we are looking outside but how we are in the inside. You have been through alot but take care of your soul by going somewhere to let stress out and just breath the beautiful air and enjoy the view. Once you get the inside soul taken care of the outside body will be as beautiful as the inside. Good things take work but is very worth the good feeling of loving ourselves inside and out. emoticon
    2138 days ago
    It is. And taking care of yourself really helps. I tell myself a saying that I made up. My mantra is "Tea and sympathy, not cake and apathy."

    As much as I get tired from my chronic pain and my 4 operations since April, (I have underactive thyroid too) I try to get myself to get a manicure here and there, put on nice clothes, do my hair... it's exhausting yes, but it makes me feel better about myself. Yes there are some days I still stay in bed, but by far I enjoy life more if I do a little something.

    I'm so proud of you for walking! Great job!
    2138 days ago
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