Wait, what am I supposed to be doing this week?????
Sunday, March 06, 2016
It's been a week since the challenge ended and I am pretty surprised to find that I feel a little...., well, am not sure what the best term is for it, but for lack of a better word I will use "unfocused".
This was a crazy busy week and I just found myself more exhausted than normal. I'm a pretty energetic person (or just therapeutically caffeinated) and don't have many "tired" days so it felt like an exceptionally long week. Add sharing an office with an angry and overreactive coworker and voila, it was a fairly sucky week. The weird thing was that I felt a little unstructured not having to report my exercise and my LTGL activities (or even having them). Kind of like a toddler with no limits put on them- just feeling uncertain about my boundaries- wait- am I supposed to use a small plate this week? Or organize something?? Or plan my meals????
I was kind of shocked that I felt this way as I didn't realize how dependent I had become on the rules of the challenges. I finally realized why- it is so much easier to just be told what to do- if even if you don't like what you are being told (what can I say, I grew up a Navy brat)- than to come up with your own goals, especially when you are busy. This is both a good and a bad thing- it is does save time and energy but you still need to be self-reliant because challenges end. I realize I can't afford not to take the time out to plan and frame my week and my 1.5# up this week is evidence of that (and it is probably more but there is no way I am confirming my suspicion today). In addition to the structure of the challenges, there is also that accountability factor. I felt really proud to post my exercise and LTGL points, especially after coming off of a couple of months of not being able to exercise. It is odd though because whether or not I posted it I still did the same things, but I found that being able to own it and earn points for my time just completed the process for me and made me feel better.
Weight loss is as much a mental game as it is a numbers game. This science behind it couldn't get simpler- you eat less than you burn and you lose, no matter what diet you are one. The mental part of it is so much more complex and I am constantly learning about what works and doesn't work for me.
So, off to boot my mental desktop for the week. I need to set my goals and plan my meals....... Have a great week!