Thursday, May 26, 2016
So, I have embarked on a different career. I went to school for Medical Assistant with Limited X-Ray, Associates Degree. This is a huge accomplishment. I loved it while in school. I have been in the field for roughly 7 months. Five months with Internal Medicine and One and half months with an Urgent Care. It seems like when I decided to go back to school, I had this whole other fantasy world in my head thinking I will love it and love my job and helping people. Then reality has hit me and realizing that I don't like it. I loved learning about it and doing all aspects in school. But actually "working" it; is a whole different world and then realizing I don't like it.
What I have learned is that I may have made a mistake in changing my career. The more I do Medical Assisting and X-Ray the less I like it. I do not like x-raying people due to the radiation (I had 10 wk crash course in it). I do not like doing prescriptions, blood draws, swabbing throats or changing smelly wound dressings; I pretty much start gagging. I also have learned that my body doesn't like being on my feet for five plus hours up to 12. I spend my days off recovering with ice-packs, heating pad and stretches. I realized that I don't like getting all up into people's business or asking questions about their health. I feel it is very private and sometimes kind of yucky about certain aspects of it. It is really weird and not really able to describe how it makes me feel. There are some aspects that I like; however, not enough to continue with the field. I have had a patient almost clock me, have had them yell and scream. I get people don't feel good; however, the stress in trying to react calmly is a whole other story. It is apparent that I feel I am not a good fit for it; sometimes I get panicky in certain situations.
I feel like I wasted my money; however, trying to find the positive because I have learned things and I do have associates degree. I think when I added associates degree to my program I subconsciously had a hunch that I may not like being a Medical Assistant. Even though I have always wanted to try Medical Assisting in my younger years and didn't do it. Guess, there was a reason and I should have listened more closely to myself or looked more inward to find out if it was something I should be doing. Who knows. It is confusing and crazy. I feel bad because I have this school loan and passed all the certifications that I need and then realize I don't like it that much. When someone asks if I love my job; I give an its okay answer.
I know what it is like to love my job before I got burned out. Funny part is I am missing technical support/customer service type of work. That is the line of work I never went to school; but loved it at one point before burnout. Crazy I say crazy.