Well, today, I received bad news. My lab work is terrible. I may have diabetes again, even after having gastric bypass and losing a lot of weight. I still need to lose weight and have at least 20-35 pounds to lose. I haven't had much time to be on spark but today, or this evening I am feeling the need to be here. My journey has been a tough one.
I have custody of my grandson from my husband's side. His name is Austin. He is 6 months old as of June 9. He is a grandma and grandpa baby. I brought him home from the hospital and looks like I will have him a very very long time.
I am still working on my book. I really need to focus some time back on to writing my book. So much has happened in my life. I have been blessed in many ways.
I have gained some of my weight back. Not a lot, but 5-8 pounds so working to get it off. Tomorrow, I will get on scale and hope I am back down as I know some of it has been water weight and have been back on track. Today, definitely back on track even more so.
One of my biggest weaknesses has been Lattes. Yep, vanilla latte. I think these are part, a very big part, of my numbers going out of whack. I just can't let myself go. I have to be pretty darn perfect with my eating, even with gastric bypass, and in some ways, really sucks.
A part of my life, I had given up, not really caring anymore. Part of it is because I felt like my husband didn't care enough to about his life or us. I have been disappointed by so much in my life in its entirety. I am a big believer in God. He gave me this baby and I have NO IDEA WHY, or WHY he brought my husband and I together, but he did. I prayed hard to not get baby, but no matter what, I got, and I love him so very much. God definitely had a funny sense of humor.
My husband and I call him our miracle baby, but that is another blog at another time.
I am back to doing my vegan protein shakes
My husband made me a promise which is an answer to a prayer, it gave me a sense of trying and wanting to live life, a meaning to my life again. My life I have fought for myself, but to know the glory, I could easily go but because of him, I have fought to stay on this earth, but since I have felt like no purpose, I didn't want to focus on fighting for my life anymore until recently.
Food choices are hard to make as I can't eat much and I can get dumping syndrome easily.