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Jealousy, the green eyed monster

Monday, December 05, 2016

Jealousy! Man, I was a green eyed monster until today. And it would be towards the same girl from church. She recently got married and I was jealous, as if her life should have been mine. Such Nonsense. I met her 8 years ago when I went to church and became a believer. I tried to be her friend. I was 21 at the time and wanted believers as friends, but she never wanted to be my friend. I tried so hard that I would give her rides from college to our hometown since our colleges were in the same town. I was jealous that she was skinny, she had parents that supported her, helped her, would pray for her. I was plain jealous of her. I knew it was because she had such a stable and good home. Wow! What nonsense, now that I think about it. I decided to move to the town where I attended college and was gone for 2 years. I came back to my homechurch after those 2 years and she was the one I wanted to see.I don't know why I wanted to see her, but she ignored me. And this hurt. I don't know why it hurt me.
Today, for the first time after really reflecting on my life and thinking. I am not jealous of her anymore. She got married a few months back and I thought. I don't want her life. Yes, my life was not peaches and cremes and may not have been as easy as hers. It was my life. God has a purpose for my life. All the hardships and struggles have made me an understanding person towards others. They have made me who I am.
So from this point on I am going to make the rest of my life the best of my life. I am going to turn 30 in sept. and I want to be in the best shape of my life. No more comparing myself to others. Each and everyone of us has grown up differently, wether it was easy or hard. We each have our own story and our own journey. It's time to turn the page from this chapter and start another chapter. God is good!
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    Hi Gigglemom65, definitely, it really was hard to let all that go and keep pushing forward in life. Thanks, for your encouragement. Have a great day! 😊
    1692 days ago
    Hi Nocalories, thanks for your sweet words. And sweet reminders of God's promises.
    1692 days ago
    This is a beautiful blog. Thank you for your openness and willing to share yourself. I agree with you God created you and loves you. Your being able to appreciate what you are is fantastic. Please may you find joy in your life because God is with you through the challenges as well as the blessings.
    1693 days ago
    I have had issue with green eyes myself. It isnt always easy to grow up and move on. I am proud of you.
    1693 days ago
    Thanks Beulah45. It took some molding on God's part, but it feels good to finally realize it. Although, it took some time. THanks for the prayers. I will keep you in prayer, too. We got this! :)
    1693 days ago
  • BEULAH45
    God created you for a purpose. You realize the hardships in your life have made you an understanding person. God bless you and keep you. I'll pray for you and, please, pray for me.
    1693 days ago
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