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Wednesday, March 01, 2017

I stopped counting calories. I stopped exercising. I have no desire to exercise. I'm eating sugar again. I'm eating carbs again. I gained about 20 pounds since early November. I'm moderately depressed. But I just make such a delicious alfredo sauce. My son loves it. I've been struggling financially. It's not as easy to eat healthy when you don't have as much money. The food bank offers Bagels, and free pastries. I haven't been even using my spark app or even trying to count calories. My jeans are tight. I can't afford to join the gym. Even if I could I would probably just walk on the treadmill. I remind myself that if I lost 20 pounds once I can do it again. And then I tell myself I will start counting calories tomorrow. I will have oatmeal for breakfast tomorrow. I will start eating salads for lunch again tomorrow. I will pay attention to my portions tomorrow. But right now I will eat a bagel with cream cheese. I will have macaroni and cheese for lunch. I will help myself two seconds at dinner. My best friend gave me chocolates. I think I'll have a few of those. Maybe I'll exercise and count calories tomorrow but right now I have to call my Senator and tell them how outraged I am all the things the Trump Administration is doing. Tonight I will watch a movie and knit well I eat chocolate and feel overwhelmed by my incredibly long overbearing list of things to do. And right now I'm going to drink my coffee and enjoy a chocolate truffle before I start making phone calls and working on my to-do list for the day. There's always tomorrow.
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    1539 days ago
  • REBCCAH311
    I think you have taken a big step in acknowledging the areas you are struggling with, now you must tackle what you can and work on that. Take a walk outside, leave the bagels at the food bank, write a letter to your senators, ect. I wish you the best of luck. Be kind to yourself!
    1539 days ago
    Thank you.
    1539 days ago
  • no profile photo C8TSON
    I understand. I have been going through similar issues lately with depression and not eating healthy. I also understand not being able to afford healthy foods. It's so frustrating. My prayers are with you that things will improve. You are worth it.
    1539 days ago
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