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Things that bring me comfort

Sunday, March 26, 2017

One might think this is a blog about comfort foods - but food doesn't really bring me comfort. I enjoy a hamburger now and then, macaroni and cheese and even a tasty beef stew. But when I am troubled or hurting, I rarely reach for food.

Last night I was thinking about this very broad subject. Nights are the worse. I can't quite get the timing down so I'm taking the pain pills just before bed. So I have to decide 'do I take 1/2 a dose, do I wait awhile, do I just take it and see what happens?' I have not had many pain pills in my lifetime - they do weird things to me. Most of the time it might take away a specific pain but leaves me feeling like I've just experienced an anxiety attack to beat all anxiety attacks. These pills just make me sleepy - that kind of sleepiness like when you're in college listening to the most boring lecture on biology when your head just keeps drifting off!

That's how I felt last night as I was trying to get comfortable and go to sleep in my Family Room. Some of you will remember that I finally put this room together last November. I bought a fold out couch from IKEA, a sewing desk & chair, and a glass case for my "treasurers". But while I was lying there trying to take my mind away from my pain, I thought about all the other things in that room that bring me such comfort.


The winter scene of Norway my grandfather painted in 1944 which ALWAYS hung about my mother's piano. It draws you in, makes you feel embraced by the beautiful scenery in Norway, especially in the wintertime. Every time I opened my eyes last night, there it was. It also reminds me of my mother playing her piano every evening after we went to bed - she loved the piano and practiced every day.


Then there's the church - I'm not sure where in Norway this church is located but it has always hung in my parent's living room with such assurance that life is perfect just the way it is. I also have a line drawing of the house my grandmother and her family grew up in - I can only imagine what life was like for her in the Northern part of Norway way back in the early 1900's. I'm sure this home, her parents and her 11 brothers & sisters made her into the person I knew as my grandmother.


Then there is my wall of ancestors - those who served in the military (including my father and Tom's father), my great grandmother who, as stories go, was the sweetest little woman ever (my mother called her little grandma), and my dear grandparents and parents. These are the people who came before me - I have spent most of my life looking at their beautiful faces. I have a couple more large photos of my Grandfather's family and his parents - someday I will find a place for them. And what would say comfort but my own children, children-in-law, step-children and grandchildren.


The last important thing I have in my comfort room is my Irish Ann & Andy dolls. I made them in the 70's for my parents - my father is Irish. Their names are Ruth & Pat and next to them is the greatest photo of my Grandfather (the artist) who worked for the biggest Twin Cities Newspaper as a photographer and a photoengraver. I always loved this photo.

While I was NOT asleep last night, I was thinking about how much all these things mean to me. They aren't decorative, nor are they valuable to anyone but me. I am so glad I decided to pull down the couch, cover it with a blanket, and use it to help with my recovery. It's the perfect place to do my exercises; I keep the night light on (the lighthouse Tom gave me just after we were married); and I have plenty of room to get up during the night. But I am also embraced by all those who came before me and who have been instrumental in making me the person I am today.

My recovery is happening slower than I expected, but I think that's just my expectations at play. I can walk easily with the walker when I am not in pain, I can do most of my exercises without help which is huge, and some nights I actually have a reasonable night's sleep. What more can a girl ask!
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  • JEANKNEE
    Wonderful memories and environment that supports your recovery. emoticon

    Take care! emoticon
    1588 days ago
  • DS9KIE
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  • DIVAGLOW
    So many wonderful things and memories of loved ones to go with them. emoticon
    1589 days ago
  • BARBARAJ73
    What a wonderful place you created! Surrounded by comforting connections - a great spot to heal. Try to be patient with yourself as you do. emoticon
    1589 days ago
  • BUTTONPOPPER1
    I just love your grandfather's snowy landscape painting. There certainly are a bunch of artistic people in your family! I can see where your grandchildren got their talent.

    Some wistfulness comes through in your blog. Surrounded by reminders of the past, you must have mixed feelings, as I usually do when I look at old photographs and mementos. I'm always sad for the irretrievability of the part of my life that's gone, but grateful for all I've learned.

    And I'm guessing your pain and discomfort would magnify any sadness you feel. I hope your pain soon subsides and your recovery starts gaining momentum. Hang in there, Kathy!
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    1589 days ago
  • RETIREESMITH
    You're getting there.
    Thanks for sharing your comforts. No wonder you don't reach for food, this is a rich set.
    1589 days ago
  • FUNNYFACE101002
    Sounds like you are doing better. You can take a trip and never leave the room. That's very nice. I hope the pain goes away quickly.
    1590 days ago
  • FLORIDASUN
    Such lovely photos to tuck you in each night. And yes...your ancestors were a handsome bunch! AND...TALENTED...your grandfather's paintings were absolutely spectacular. They transcend their beauty even through the computer screen Kathy! emoticon

    I'm so happy that you have this wonderfully comfortable room that is all yours that you can enjoy during your recovery. You are doing just fine...a little bit better each and every day. You will be in terrific shape in a couple of weeks..I'm cheering you on! emoticon

    Your Irish Ann and Andy dolls just make me smile...how adorable and that you made them make them even more precious. I must dig out my Teddy Bears that I made when we had the little flea market right after we retired from our construction biz. Some were just too cute to sell and I held on to one or two of them. I usually bring them out around Christmas time...but like your photos I like gazing upon them...so maybe sooner.

    We bought the cats a cat tree...it must be close to 6' high...they love it...and cats are picky little creatures so the hubs and I feel like Christmas came early! emoticon emoticon


    1590 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4994568
    What a great idea--setting up the room as you instinctively knew you would need. I hope things start going better for you.
    1590 days ago
  • DORHYGT
    Thanks for sharing your wonderful attitude.
    1590 days ago
  • JUDYAMK
    Thank you for sharing your wall of memories of your family .I have picture frames all over of my family . So many people love to come and see them as I know the history behind them,.told to me by my grandmother. What is nice I have a very good printer and I copy those others want. however at the same time the very same people tell me they could not handle all them with the dusting not me I love to pick each one up as Ii dust and think of their lies they once had and that I cam from them.
    At Christmas time when they are taken from the piano. end tables, and coffee table plus the walls. I miss seeing them. Once January arrives they go back to their proper sitting place for me to gaze at and for others to enjoy and take home copies.
    So thank you for sharing your family photos plus te beautiful painting your dad did !
    Judy
    1590 days ago
  • MARINGAL
    My mother has a photo wall. Well actually it is in my dad's office and she has kept it there. I have all my old photos pretty much in a book or box. All my framed photos now are recent. Except for one of a black and white of my mom when she was in her teens. It accompanies other photos located on a table in my bedroom with a recent photo of my mom and me, a picture of my grandkids and Lucy Lou. My children are on another table showing them how they are now, laughing together. Priceless. My whole cottage is one big comfort zone. And when my mom dies, there will be very little that I will take for my keepsake that she has. A couple of very small beautiful colorful framed oils and a few lovely artifacts that I had given her and my dad when I decorated their home. Other than that, I don't like anything, it isn't my taste even though she likes them. They will go to my sisters.
    Yes, I look around now and every little thing brings me joy and comfort.
    1590 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/26/2017 6:11:25 PM
  • no profile photo CD11945874
    Wonderful pictures that bring memories to bring you comfort and help you get a good nights sleep... Best wishes for a healthful recovery.
    1590 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Glad you are surrounded by things which bring you comfort as you rest. That's wonderful.
    1590 days ago
  • SERENASEA
    A beautiful message, your room is like a safe haven. And I love the photo of your grandfather! I wouldn't be debating with myself about the pain pill, just knock me out and let me float.
    1590 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1884311
    Wonderful way to relax and fall to sleep. Thanks for sharing. emoticon
    1590 days ago
  • no profile photo L_DROUIN
    What a nice way and a nice place to enjoy your comforts. Thanks for sharing photos!
    1590 days ago
  • BROOKLYN_BORN
    Such lovely memories and such a natural way to bring on a restful sleep,

    Thank you for sharing this.
    1590 days ago
  • IMUSTLOSEIT1
    Wonderful memories. such a great way to go off to dream world, with all your family around you.
    1590 days ago
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