"Never forget to look for blessing -- even the smallest of joys can brighten the worst of days." - Anonymous
Years ago (probably 2009 the year I lost my job)for Christmas my son Colin bought me a book, 'The Rainy Day Book; Pick me Ups for When you're a little Blue'. It's in the style of the Chicken Soup books. I set it aside thinking 'how can a book filled with random thoughts by other people offer me any peace?'
For years my morning practice is to read at least one devotional for the day, one uplifting story each morning, and 2 years ago I decided I wanted to read the Bible from cover to cover - I am on week 41 which means I've obviously not been keeping up with that commitment. Once the knee pain started getting bad I needed something encouraging but less deep to read in the mornings - so I picked up 'The Rainy Day Book'. It has been an outstanding early morning read. Nothing deep, sometimes just funny stories. It is grounded in scripture, but it's not at all like a devotional.
This morning I read the quote above and it was like a message to me from the Universe. That message being: look for the small things. Not every day will be a milestone day in your recovery. Not every day will you walk without the walker, or have your bandages removed - some days the progress you make will be so small you may not even notice it.
Yesterday I had already written in my care journal (I am keeping track of how I am doing each day, how much and when I am taking medication, and if there is anything important to note about my recovery) that as of April 1st I will begin to look for small successes. I know that things are changing every day and I want to make sure I acknowledge those changes and celebrate even the most routine.
April 1st success: I was able to go out our back steps (only 2) so Daisy and I could sit outside for 20 minutes and soak up the beautiful sunshine
- it felt so good and I was warmer sitting outside than inside yesterday afternoon.
The small piece of success to that is the ability to get through the garage using only the cane.
April 2nd success: I already have my small success for this morning. From the time I got home from the hospital Tom has been bringing me my 2 cups of coffee every morning. And believe me, I have appreciate that more than I can say. My life begins after that 2nd cup of coffee - but some days I've had to wait (or I could call him - he'd come right away). THIS morning I took my shower, got dressed and decided to work in my office waiting for Tom to be ready for breakfast. I made my 2nd cup in the Keurig (thank goodness for Keurig), used my left hand to push the walker and carried my coffee into my office! I could be using the cane but it just doesn't feel that stable to me yet - plus I have this wonderful bag that hangs over my walker for my phone, book, papers, etc.
I will be watching for small levels of progress each day - a game I can play with myself to keep the gloomies at bay! Recovery is taking longer than I wanted - that was simply wishful thinking on my part. The reality of this - my recovery is happening and I am grateful for it. I will accept it in whatever time it needs!
Happy Sunday everyone!